The dream
It was amazing. Yeah, the kiss wasn't particularly eventful, I acted on impulse and the situation unfolded, I didn't think "Oh god, when is it going to be over?"(Like that other person online) since I was the one who initiated it, lol, but I did find it funny I didn't feel particularly overwhelmed with euphoria like I would've thought should've happened.
Anyway, yeah, it was interesting... because the necking felt exactly like my dog licking me. Which then made me think that my dog licked me because she loved me, lol. Not the common speculation, "She thinks you're dirty" or "She thinks your sweat tastes good", lol(Albeit, that's probably true), she does it because she truly has affection for me.
Anyway, today was great (besides the starting difficulties, still not sure what that was. Might've been food illness since I felt weak like I was sick, and I speculated that my cocoa and wine ritual kept it from advancing; Or, it might've been the adrenal rushes throughout the night from my back's joint being loosened by the bed. Gosh, that was the first time in /forever/ I felt my body uncontrollably shaking, and presumably because I laid in the other bed earlier that day. The last time that happened was when I was experimenting in sleeping in that bed, thinking it might've been able to stop the nocturnal panic attacks, but no cigar, instead my body just seemed to shake. Or, maybe I was just too busy with work... that also happened back in January...)
The walk was pretty darn awesome. I was coming home and it was dark and dreary and it was getting darker, and the neighborhoods I walked though just felt magical. I think it was the combination of the falling cherry blossom petals, the cloudy and dreary atmosphere and the "feeling of magic" I got from the esprit(meaning spirit, which makes sense.) of the neighborhoods I walked though, seemingly gathering the feeling of magic and ambition put into them during the time they were constructed to the will of someone and their imagination.
Anyway, yeah, it was interesting... because the necking felt exactly like my dog licking me. Which then made me think that my dog licked me because she loved me, lol. Not the common speculation, "She thinks you're dirty" or "She thinks your sweat tastes good", lol(Albeit, that's probably true), she does it because she truly has affection for me.
Anyway, today was great (besides the starting difficulties, still not sure what that was. Might've been food illness since I felt weak like I was sick, and I speculated that my cocoa and wine ritual kept it from advancing; Or, it might've been the adrenal rushes throughout the night from my back's joint being loosened by the bed. Gosh, that was the first time in /forever/ I felt my body uncontrollably shaking, and presumably because I laid in the other bed earlier that day. The last time that happened was when I was experimenting in sleeping in that bed, thinking it might've been able to stop the nocturnal panic attacks, but no cigar, instead my body just seemed to shake. Or, maybe I was just too busy with work... that also happened back in January...)
The walk was pretty darn awesome. I was coming home and it was dark and dreary and it was getting darker, and the neighborhoods I walked though just felt magical. I think it was the combination of the falling cherry blossom petals, the cloudy and dreary atmosphere and the "feeling of magic" I got from the esprit(meaning spirit, which makes sense.) of the neighborhoods I walked though, seemingly gathering the feeling of magic and ambition put into them during the time they were constructed to the will of someone and their imagination.