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i have messed everything up.
everything.
i dont like escondido and i miss charter and i want to go back but i cant and i am so stupid.
i blew off everything that ever mattered to me and i just expected it all to work out and i wanted "to have fun."
i wasnt having fun this is just stupid.
i want it all back and i want all of the recent bad stuff to disapear.
i dont want it this way anymore.
i am so mean and i didnt care but i do care and i miss sarah and elaine and kaitlynn and meredith and everybody and cornerstone.
i dont want it to be this way.
i want them all back but i blew it all off and i thought i could just be like her and i cant and thought escondido would just be like her and be fun and that i could just blend in and i can but i dont like it.
I DONT LIKE IT
I DONT LIKE IT
and they were all right but i didnt listen to them i listened to her and she is very wrong and now that i need her she doesnt care she is annoyed but me.
who does this?
WHO DOES THIS????
i have changed so much and i dont like it.
everything.
i dont like escondido and i miss charter and i want to go back but i cant and i am so stupid.
i blew off everything that ever mattered to me and i just expected it all to work out and i wanted "to have fun."
i wasnt having fun this is just stupid.
i want it all back and i want all of the recent bad stuff to disapear.
i dont want it this way anymore.
i am so mean and i didnt care but i do care and i miss sarah and elaine and kaitlynn and meredith and everybody and cornerstone.
i dont want it to be this way.
i want them all back but i blew it all off and i thought i could just be like her and i cant and thought escondido would just be like her and be fun and that i could just blend in and i can but i dont like it.
I DONT LIKE IT
I DONT LIKE IT
and they were all right but i didnt listen to them i listened to her and she is very wrong and now that i need her she doesnt care she is annoyed but me.
who does this?
WHO DOES THIS????
i have changed so much and i dont like it.