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Almost a year ago today, I found myself writing Tony Bowick, the Pastor of Community Development and my future discipleship leader, an e-mail. It was a sunday night. I'd just seen him speak on stage about ways to get involved and involvement was exactly what I wanted the most.
A few nights previous, I'd awoke up from a dream I found absolutely terrifying. Four very specific words would not leave me alone. They were going deep. It was like they were being engraved into my being. I remember that much. Growing. Roots. at. Status. In the blurry dream, I was in a leadership position and I was speaking on stage. NOTHING could scare me more... I absolutely did not want this. In the e-mail, I remember writing: "I had this dream and I have a really strong feeling that I wish would go away... i think one day I'm going to be leading at status."
One year later, to the month, I am reminded of this e-mail. As I reflect, I'm quite aware that this had been fulfilled. Regardless of my title, I have been given a leadership role. I am being asked to speak on stage. My photography is being displayed for everyone to see plain and clear. This came much more gently than I could've hoped for. This still terrifies me. I don't know how to lead. I don't know what to speak. But He's brought me safely and faithfully to a new place. It's incredible to me. It was and is becoming a part of my story and an intricate part of my being. If this much can happen in one year, the idea of a new passing year is incredibly exciting.
It's not of my own doing.
A few nights previous, I'd awoke up from a dream I found absolutely terrifying. Four very specific words would not leave me alone. They were going deep. It was like they were being engraved into my being. I remember that much. Growing. Roots. at. Status. In the blurry dream, I was in a leadership position and I was speaking on stage. NOTHING could scare me more... I absolutely did not want this. In the e-mail, I remember writing: "I had this dream and I have a really strong feeling that I wish would go away... i think one day I'm going to be leading at status."
One year later, to the month, I am reminded of this e-mail. As I reflect, I'm quite aware that this had been fulfilled. Regardless of my title, I have been given a leadership role. I am being asked to speak on stage. My photography is being displayed for everyone to see plain and clear. This came much more gently than I could've hoped for. This still terrifies me. I don't know how to lead. I don't know what to speak. But He's brought me safely and faithfully to a new place. It's incredible to me. It was and is becoming a part of my story and an intricate part of my being. If this much can happen in one year, the idea of a new passing year is incredibly exciting.
It's not of my own doing.