My finger hurts...
~I chewed the nail too short...ouch.
~So, today a friend asked me a question that I haven't been asked in a while. "Why are you so nice?". I just shrugged it off, answered an easy "Because you're my friend, and you're amazing." Then she ran to go get some food and whatever, and I got to thinking to myself, "Am I really all that nice?" and the answering is a resounding "No". For the most part, I'm not, mainly in part to my inability to open up to people. When I let people so close to me, I end up becoming my most closed off. I get catty, and snide, and I try to shield myself from letting people in any farther. People who aren't that close, get to see who I actually am...a caring, gentle person. But if you screw with me, I become the shielded me that my friends see. It makes no sense to me, why I'm more shielded to my closer friends, then I am with aquaintances. I guess I'll try working on it, but some people I know still deserve to be treated like crap because of the way the treat me, once again, don't talk shit about me to people I don't know.
~There was something else I wanted to talk about...then again, I have been thinking on this matter "Why am I so nice?" so I haven't really gotten to think about what I wanted to write about otherwise.
~So, today a friend asked me a question that I haven't been asked in a while. "Why are you so nice?". I just shrugged it off, answered an easy "Because you're my friend, and you're amazing." Then she ran to go get some food and whatever, and I got to thinking to myself, "Am I really all that nice?" and the answering is a resounding "No". For the most part, I'm not, mainly in part to my inability to open up to people. When I let people so close to me, I end up becoming my most closed off. I get catty, and snide, and I try to shield myself from letting people in any farther. People who aren't that close, get to see who I actually am...a caring, gentle person. But if you screw with me, I become the shielded me that my friends see. It makes no sense to me, why I'm more shielded to my closer friends, then I am with aquaintances. I guess I'll try working on it, but some people I know still deserve to be treated like crap because of the way the treat me, once again, don't talk shit about me to people I don't know.
~There was something else I wanted to talk about...then again, I have been thinking on this matter "Why am I so nice?" so I haven't really gotten to think about what I wanted to write about otherwise.