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~I tried so hard. So very, very hard. I tried to resist what I wanted. I really wanted to resist...but I couldn't. I couldn't do it. And now, I'm practically in tears. I don't want to fall for someone else. I don't want it to happen. I just...just can't handle it. I want to lose all my emotions. I want to be a blank slate, for the rest of my life. I just don't want this anymore. I told myself: "Self, you will not fall for another person. Not again." and now look at me, I'm nearly in tears, wishing to be next to him right now.
~Last night was wonderful, I don't care if he's straight, if he can cuddle with me, and feel comfortable while doing it, can't I do the same with feeling nothing too? I just want this enigmatic person to be less of an enigma, and tell people what his sexual preference is, we all know at one time he said he was bi (and before anyone says anything, it's not Dane). So, why do I like him so much? Is it because he is so sweet? I think that'd be a good answer.
~Hayden...I just want to see you right now...and you'll never know how much I care for you... and I've only known you for a week tops...you need to stop being how you are...no...don't do that...just stop being so nice to me...stop hugging me...and kissing me...just stop everything towards me...and be just another face in the crowd...
~Last night was wonderful, I don't care if he's straight, if he can cuddle with me, and feel comfortable while doing it, can't I do the same with feeling nothing too? I just want this enigmatic person to be less of an enigma, and tell people what his sexual preference is, we all know at one time he said he was bi (and before anyone says anything, it's not Dane). So, why do I like him so much? Is it because he is so sweet? I think that'd be a good answer.
~Hayden...I just want to see you right now...and you'll never know how much I care for you... and I've only known you for a week tops...you need to stop being how you are...no...don't do that...just stop being so nice to me...stop hugging me...and kissing me...just stop everything towards me...and be just another face in the crowd...