sorry
jen for not calling earlier. i slept until like four, which was pretty awesome.. but if you're in town, you better call me.
plans for the weeek:
- interview for this halfway house thing. there are a few plusses/minuses, such as it being safe and paid for by some support group/at 27th and washington (which is three to five buses away!) but i really need to get on other options if im going to do that.
- get to the hudson center to finish applying for medicaid/food stamps/cash living assitance/etc. there are all these programs that i need to take advantage of.. i am estimating over 40,000 dollars in hospital bills. plus i gotta live/eat, and i owe a hundred people money.. its gonna be a long road. but im pretty excited.
- go to probation. she's been pretty cool about this o.d.ing/dying thing, so im gonna be on time to see her on tuesday, and see what she's talking about.
so, this weekend,i totally tempted the devil.. i had to to see what i was made of. i disappeared for half a day and i saw junkie friends and stayed in a junkie house, rode in junkie cars, and talked junkie shit. all to no avail. not only were there loose ends to tie up, apologies to make, and questions to ask about that night, but i just had to see whether friendships run deeper than just sticking together since everyone hates us.
some of them do, and some of them don't.
what i was surprised to find out is that a lot of them have been scared of the dope for the most part since it happened. like three of my closest coconspiritors are clean, some for the first time in a loooong time, and one is desperately trying. one even moved to boston just to break out. that was nice to see. more people to hang out with!
so this week is going to be pretty busy.
my birthday is on wednesday. ill be twentyfive.
plans for the weeek:
- interview for this halfway house thing. there are a few plusses/minuses, such as it being safe and paid for by some support group/at 27th and washington (which is three to five buses away!) but i really need to get on other options if im going to do that.
- get to the hudson center to finish applying for medicaid/food stamps/cash living assitance/etc. there are all these programs that i need to take advantage of.. i am estimating over 40,000 dollars in hospital bills. plus i gotta live/eat, and i owe a hundred people money.. its gonna be a long road. but im pretty excited.
- go to probation. she's been pretty cool about this o.d.ing/dying thing, so im gonna be on time to see her on tuesday, and see what she's talking about.
so, this weekend,i totally tempted the devil.. i had to to see what i was made of. i disappeared for half a day and i saw junkie friends and stayed in a junkie house, rode in junkie cars, and talked junkie shit. all to no avail. not only were there loose ends to tie up, apologies to make, and questions to ask about that night, but i just had to see whether friendships run deeper than just sticking together since everyone hates us.
some of them do, and some of them don't.
what i was surprised to find out is that a lot of them have been scared of the dope for the most part since it happened. like three of my closest coconspiritors are clean, some for the first time in a loooong time, and one is desperately trying. one even moved to boston just to break out. that was nice to see. more people to hang out with!
so this week is going to be pretty busy.
my birthday is on wednesday. ill be twentyfive.