Somebody tell me what to do...
That's it. I'm done.
I'm done putting up with this.
I'm not gonna try and hold it together anyone.
Relationships don't work out the second time around.
They just don't.
I can't deal with not knowing what's gonna happen.
Hoping that maybe things will be okay, but him and I both know that it can't work out.
But we sympathize for each other, because we both want to be together.
I just can't do that anymore.
I need it to be over, I'm worrying and thinking too much.
I'm getting paranoid.
And I'm complaining.
I want it to work out so bad, but it won't.
He keeps telling me that.
And I still need to get it through my head.
I think I'm finally starting to understand it.
Long distance just doesn't work out, even if both people work for it.
That's how this was..and it still didn't work in our favor.
I can't keep putting myself through this cause I'm obviously not happy.
I want love. I want peace.
I want to settle in my own life.
But...I miss him...
And that's why I can't make up my frickin mind because I just can't let it go. I never can. I've never been able to.
And I never will be able to.
That's one of my worst qualities.
I've never been able to let go of my feelings. They linger for months...years.
I just wish things didn't have to be the way they did.
I hate how distance screws things up.
I hate how that one time he really scared me.
And the fact that I'll never forget that one moment that probably helped me turn away for good.
Or..not for good.
I don't even knowwwww.
I'm done putting up with this.
I'm not gonna try and hold it together anyone.
Relationships don't work out the second time around.
They just don't.
I can't deal with not knowing what's gonna happen.
Hoping that maybe things will be okay, but him and I both know that it can't work out.
But we sympathize for each other, because we both want to be together.
I just can't do that anymore.
I need it to be over, I'm worrying and thinking too much.
I'm getting paranoid.
And I'm complaining.
I want it to work out so bad, but it won't.
He keeps telling me that.
And I still need to get it through my head.
I think I'm finally starting to understand it.
Long distance just doesn't work out, even if both people work for it.
That's how this was..and it still didn't work in our favor.
I can't keep putting myself through this cause I'm obviously not happy.
I want love. I want peace.
I want to settle in my own life.
But...I miss him...
And that's why I can't make up my frickin mind because I just can't let it go. I never can. I've never been able to.
And I never will be able to.
That's one of my worst qualities.
I've never been able to let go of my feelings. They linger for months...years.
I just wish things didn't have to be the way they did.
I hate how distance screws things up.
I hate how that one time he really scared me.
And the fact that I'll never forget that one moment that probably helped me turn away for good.
Or..not for good.
I don't even knowwwww.