(in need to vent...like whoa..bare with me)
why the fuck did I have to love him?
Of all people..why him? Why the fuck did it have to be him. Or better yet, why am I not over him yet? It's been a year. A whole year. I haven't seen him in months. Yet when watching Lena and Kustos fall in love over her summer stay in Greece in the movie, I lost it. When she finally catches him to tell him that she loves him too. I just...I lost it. Tears just started flowing. I haven't felt that empty feeling in months. But just seeing that it was like a long flashback of last summer. All I could think about was him. I felt like I was gonna throw up, I just felt fucking sick. That's the worst feeling you could ever feel. Just...emptiness. You feel so fucking empty...
so fucking empty.