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asukasan

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Sep 27, 2009 00:53

I hate you. I hate you with every fibre of my existence.
Ever since that night that you raped me; the night including when you stole my innocence and my virginity, the night you forced me to have anal sex until I started to cry and cry, just begging you to stop. Please, just stop. I want to get on with my life and you cannot enable me to do so, ( Read more... )

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gamer_gal September 27 2009, 11:36:31 UTC

*gives you a big hug* Oh sweetie... I'm so sorry! I hope and pray that you will find peace.

nonickname96 September 27 2009, 17:07:52 UTC

There really isn't anything i can say to make this better... anything ANYONE can say. But i really do hope (and pray) that you can move on from this... that you can heal and move forward.

I'd also like to say that i'm SO INCREDIBLY SORRY that someone could do something like that to you. I know it's not my fault... but i still ache for the pain you feel.

With concern,
Emily

P.s.
Have you ever talked to a professional counselor about this? If you have disregard this... but it might be useful for you to do so if you haven't.

asukasan September 27 2009, 17:26:50 UTC

I just hate that it happened five years ago, but the pain is still so very real. My ex is obsessed with me, even though it's been so long. He can't understand why I'm so angry, and he keeps having these dreams about me where I'm pissed off or disgusted by his very presence ( ... )

nodiriasama September 27 2009, 19:05:25 UTC

If he's spying on you and you have proof, call the cops. I'd recommend a restraining order but he's too far away for that to be effective...

pzelda September 28 2009, 14:09:51 UTC

Jeez, that's horrible. I had no idea. :( Now the recent FB status updates make sense to me.

He's not a human being... He's just a fucked up creature who has no feelings or regards for anyone around him, and that is proof enough right there.

I wish I knew what to say to help you - I feel bad that you're still hurting from this, and that I can't be of any help. :( *hugs*

strahd98 October 1 2009, 01:55:57 UTC

It's amazing how horrible people can be, and with some they never comprehend what they did. I wish there was something I could say to make things better but I know better. The only thing I can suggest (as already mentioned) is to talk to a therapist about it.

delve October 11 2009, 03:03:55 UTC

I know you wrote this last month, but I saw your post in bad_service and thought I'd come see how you've been. I'm really sorry that dealing with the aftermath has been so terrible.

delve October 11 2009, 03:04:58 UTC

BTW, my LJ name used to be whirlwind180, and my default icon was this one. ;)