2 months and 3 days.... and counting
Well dear readers, lots of things going on.. I've got a slight dilemma..Ive got a friend that I care about as a friend and strictly as a friend that wants to be more than that..and I have no desire whatsoever to spend time cultivating the relationship notion that he has. I've told him twice that i'm not really interested in being more than friends and by friends i mean like casual 'oh good to see you hows school' kinda thing. And me being the person whos ultimate fear is rejection i don't know how to let him know that his idea of me is completely off and that i'm not someone he needs to be clinging to. And it doesn't really help that i've kinda broken one of my rules and i'm kinda falling for someone else...who also happens to be a friend and i really don't want things to turn out like my previous adventures into the relationship ritual.. i'm really confused b/c i don't want to rush anything with said person b/c that could be just as ugly if not uglier than a slow and steady decline. It just makes me nervous b/c I don't want this to be a purely sexual relationship and i don't think it will be b/c he's just freaking hilarious and we have the best of time fighting over religion, and just being stupid together. I just don't know what to do about anything anymore.