A purging :Guilt
Please excuse this girl's lack of protocol while she gets this out.
I feel guilty today. Thing is, I didn't feel guilty when I felt to go out with Sara. I know that there is a lot of housework to be done, and that is my role as Houseslave/wife and I've been doing a terrible, terrible job at it and I am so so sorry. I will be making a plan to make it all better within the week. I may even postpone my Sabbatical until I have a good routine in place before leaving it for a week. When I came home and noticed that Master had done so much work already for me, and I wasn't there to help I was crushed. I know that He said not to worry, and just stressed the importance of getting the housework done but I cannot help but feel that I let Him down.
The Bedroom is a mess, I haven't been making Master's Lunch like i should be the entry-way looks like something went through it with a shovel and the floors desperately need sweeping/vacuuming. I wish I could find a way to purge this guilt before He comes home and I will work on that, however I am not sure i is possible without interrupting the flow of my work to be done. The last thing I want is for Him to feel like He's walking into another set of problems just after He returns from work. I'm nervous that when He returns home that He will not be pleased and that I will be in disgrace, more than I already feel that I am.
I feel guilty today. Thing is, I didn't feel guilty when I felt to go out with Sara. I know that there is a lot of housework to be done, and that is my role as Houseslave/wife and I've been doing a terrible, terrible job at it and I am so so sorry. I will be making a plan to make it all better within the week. I may even postpone my Sabbatical until I have a good routine in place before leaving it for a week. When I came home and noticed that Master had done so much work already for me, and I wasn't there to help I was crushed. I know that He said not to worry, and just stressed the importance of getting the housework done but I cannot help but feel that I let Him down.
The Bedroom is a mess, I haven't been making Master's Lunch like i should be the entry-way looks like something went through it with a shovel and the floors desperately need sweeping/vacuuming. I wish I could find a way to purge this guilt before He comes home and I will work on that, however I am not sure i is possible without interrupting the flow of my work to be done. The last thing I want is for Him to feel like He's walking into another set of problems just after He returns from work. I'm nervous that when He returns home that He will not be pleased and that I will be in disgrace, more than I already feel that I am.