A response to a comment, which turned into a rambling monologue that I decided belongs here.
Dominique wrote:You cannot switch this late in the game of life just because you want to and you feel you missed the boat....
You have to want to go to med school so badly that your life would be meaningless without it, because other people are there for that reason and you're starting waaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyy behind them with your background in the ( Read more... )
You have to want to go to med school so badly that your life would be meaningless without it, because other people are there for that reason and you're starting waaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyy behind them with your background in the ( Read more... )
As for the "meaningful" search, I also obsessed over that having learned that a career in the performing arts - what I was raised to do - was not going to work out. I was starting all over. I even remember the point where I felt I hit rock bottom. I was sitting on a USC fountain bench thinking, "What is keeping me here? Why is my life worth anything? Why don't I just disappear?"
Thank Ayn Rand I put my head on right and did not cash out my chips on my future.
I think you are being too Jewish about picking something meaningful. Stop psycho-analyzing and stick with something! It sounds like you already have, and you have chosen music. You will have time to study other things besides music even with a career founded on music. You should only uproot your life if you are truly miserable studying music and being a career musician.
You did make a commitment to yourself, this being "day 4 of [your] master's degree." Show some integrity and stick with the choice you have already made, goddamnit.
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I thrive on non-stop stress, and I'm relatively relaxed right now. That's the problem. I need 3 concerts coming up, all with large amounts of music I haven't yet learned, 4 rehearsals a day, plus I'm writing the song translations, designing the programs, and starting to plan a fourth concert a few months further down the road.
Medicine--at least from watching ER--looks a little like that. Hence it looks like a lot of fun/madness.
I like madness.
I also need a secretary/assistant. Because anything involving paperwork, telephone calls, bureaucracy, and following a schedule somehow reduces me to the level of a babbling toddler. I'm still amazed that I haven't been kicked out of Germany for forgetting to (or avoiding) filling out some form or getting something stamped (they LOVE stamps here.)
Are you done with your Master's degree, now? Working? Working on a PhD? Married with three children, a dog and a picket fence, living in a suburb of a medium-sized midwestern city?
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