On tonight and pediatric burn wards
This evening I almost had a meltdown. I saw something that completely knocked me out of my good humor. Jenna and I went to the bookstore together after dinner at Sakura and before finishing 'Rome'. There, I saw a boy maybe the age of my little brother(or 14 for those who don't know). The boy was burned horribly on all visible orifaces of his body. His nose and ears had essentially melted from his face. The skin of his fingers had fused together. He wore a cap to hide his scalp or such was my speculation.
The young age, profundity of disfiguration and more than anything, my inability to do anything whatsoever to help him overwhelmed me. I have been on the verge of tears for the better part of 6 hours now. At the store, I had to rest against a bookshelf. The thoughts kept flooding me. I consider that he will not, in all probability, have a girlfriend in his life. I don't know about the use of his various parts. I wonder if people are nice to him, is he lonely? Please tell me that everything else, at least, is perfect for him. Does he hate his situation? Is he in pain? Does it hurt to move? Is he ok? I don't know. The situation actually hurts me physically. I have a pain in my chest over it. It is just so unfair... and he must have been young when it happened... for he is young now. I do not know what grace saved his eyes but thank it on my behalf.
Then you get to thinking of those that have chronic or terminal ailments and those who don't survive and you wonder....
The young age, profundity of disfiguration and more than anything, my inability to do anything whatsoever to help him overwhelmed me. I have been on the verge of tears for the better part of 6 hours now. At the store, I had to rest against a bookshelf. The thoughts kept flooding me. I consider that he will not, in all probability, have a girlfriend in his life. I don't know about the use of his various parts. I wonder if people are nice to him, is he lonely? Please tell me that everything else, at least, is perfect for him. Does he hate his situation? Is he in pain? Does it hurt to move? Is he ok? I don't know. The situation actually hurts me physically. I have a pain in my chest over it. It is just so unfair... and he must have been young when it happened... for he is young now. I do not know what grace saved his eyes but thank it on my behalf.
Then you get to thinking of those that have chronic or terminal ailments and those who don't survive and you wonder....