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I SPENT MOST OF YESTERDAY CLEANING THE HOUSE AND ORGANIZING BABY STUFF.. TODAY MY BACK IS FUCKING KILLING ME.. THESE DAYS IT HURTS EVERYDAY BUT TODAY IS ESPECIALLY BAD.. WHENEVER I STAND UP I HAVE TO WAIT FOR A MINUTE FOR EVERYTHING TO SNAP BACK INTO PLACE HOLDING MY BREATH SO I DONT CRY OR START CURSING.. ALL IN ALL I GUESS ITS WORTH IT THOUGH CUZ NOW I CAN ALMOST KIND OF RELAX.. THE BABYS ROOM ISNT QUITE READY YET BUT JAMES CLEANED OUT A CLOSET IN OUR ROOM FOR ME TO PUT THE BABYS STUFF IN FOR NOW.. SINCE SHELL BE SLEEPING IN THERE FOR THE FIRST FEW MONTHS ITS PROBABLY BETTER THAT WAY ANYWAY.. IM GETTING REALLY ANXIOUS FOR HER TO GET HERE.. I KNOW ITS STILL PRETTY EARLY BUT I FEEL LIKE I COULD HAVE HER ANY DAY NOW.. I DONT KNOW WHY BUT I JUST THINK IM GOING TO HAVE HER EARLY.. MY PREGNANCY INTUITION SEEMS TO BE WRONG SO FAR SO THAT MEANS ILL PROBABLY GO PAST MY DUE DATE.. I KEEP MEANING TO ASK MY MOM WHEN WE WERE BORN FOR COMPARISON BUT I ALWAYS FORGET..
THIS IS THE FIRST YEAR THAT I WONT SEE ANY OF MY FAMILY FOR EITHER THANKSGIVING OR CHRISTMAS.. ITS KIND OF DEPRESSING.. I COULD HAVE GONE OUT FOR THANKSGIVING BUT UGH I CANT IMAGINE BEING IN THE CAR THAT LONG WHILE IM THIS PREGNANT PLUS IM TRYING MY HARDEST TO SAVE MY VACATION TIME FOR MATERNITY LEAVE.. SIX WEEKS OF NO PAYCHECK IS REALLY GOING TO SUCK :/
THIS IS THE FIRST YEAR THAT I WONT SEE ANY OF MY FAMILY FOR EITHER THANKSGIVING OR CHRISTMAS.. ITS KIND OF DEPRESSING.. I COULD HAVE GONE OUT FOR THANKSGIVING BUT UGH I CANT IMAGINE BEING IN THE CAR THAT LONG WHILE IM THIS PREGNANT PLUS IM TRYING MY HARDEST TO SAVE MY VACATION TIME FOR MATERNITY LEAVE.. SIX WEEKS OF NO PAYCHECK IS REALLY GOING TO SUCK :/