People say not to have a baby just so something will love you...
They do say that, right?
I realize I've been gone quite a while again. I've tried to keep up with others' posts when internet is available, but I haven't really been commenting. I did notice that major life changes have been going on with some of you though! Belated congratulations! (I am clearly a horrible long-distance friend. And I have no impressive progress to show for it!)
Not much has changed here. Still in SC. Still working in the store, though as the senior assistant manager now. Still in the same house wondering where everything went wrong (although, it hasn't -all- gone wrong--it's mostly just me).
Things were -supposed- to change, I know. I did pursue the enlisting process enough to learn it would be a long-term commitment that would not likely get me where I wanted to go (they didn't need anyone in the position I most wanted/was most qualified for, and what they did have available, I did not want), so I weighed my options, and I'm looking for a new option. Building a portfolio to apply to Hollins seems the most reasonable idea, but knowing me, I'll probably flip out and think of 6 different things while I'm working on my application. I just don't know what I want anymore (or I do, and I cannot has...).
I adopted a puppy three weeks ago. She'll be 12 weeks old this Wednesday. I ask myself why I did this the whole time I'm waking up at 5, chasing her around, pulling things she shouldn't eat out of her mouth and cleaning up after her, but she's lovable and well-behaved aside from not getting that she cannot pee in the house (she goes to the door sometimes when she needs to go, and she uses the same spot outside any time I catch her or take her out, but when she's got to pee, she just does it wherever she is in the house...saa). There's also the wanting to eat every leaf/stick/string/fuzzball/rock she finds. (The only thing belonging to anyone she's chewed and damaged was my phone charger, and she hasn't really touched anything else. It's random paper and stuff that she wants.) This is a serious commitment here and I wasn't in the right place to make it; I'm trying to figure out a way to leave, and now I have someone to take with me. Crazy! Why would I do that? Not only is my cat glaring at me as though to say I've ruined her life and all our plans of living on our own some day; now I can't flip out, move across the country and live in my car. I've got a furry child to feed! Our other dog loves her though...
Aside from puppy, I've been experimenting with cooking all sorts of foreign foods and hosting very small dinner parties (with belly dancing in between while food is cooking). That and learning script formatting so I can finish my play has been keeping me occupied while I try to figure things out.
It's not that living with mother is bad. It's just the only clear vision I have is not here, not this; I just can't figure out how to get there. There are still some good here: recent shifts at work now mean I love everyone I work with (although certain aspects of that are complicated) and after all, I do have puppy. And I'd forgotten how happy Miyavi makes me! (In the process of getting time off to go to his concert in ATL in July RIGHT NOW!)
I realize I've been gone quite a while again. I've tried to keep up with others' posts when internet is available, but I haven't really been commenting. I did notice that major life changes have been going on with some of you though! Belated congratulations! (I am clearly a horrible long-distance friend. And I have no impressive progress to show for it!)
Not much has changed here. Still in SC. Still working in the store, though as the senior assistant manager now. Still in the same house wondering where everything went wrong (although, it hasn't -all- gone wrong--it's mostly just me).
Things were -supposed- to change, I know. I did pursue the enlisting process enough to learn it would be a long-term commitment that would not likely get me where I wanted to go (they didn't need anyone in the position I most wanted/was most qualified for, and what they did have available, I did not want), so I weighed my options, and I'm looking for a new option. Building a portfolio to apply to Hollins seems the most reasonable idea, but knowing me, I'll probably flip out and think of 6 different things while I'm working on my application. I just don't know what I want anymore (or I do, and I cannot has...).
I adopted a puppy three weeks ago. She'll be 12 weeks old this Wednesday. I ask myself why I did this the whole time I'm waking up at 5, chasing her around, pulling things she shouldn't eat out of her mouth and cleaning up after her, but she's lovable and well-behaved aside from not getting that she cannot pee in the house (she goes to the door sometimes when she needs to go, and she uses the same spot outside any time I catch her or take her out, but when she's got to pee, she just does it wherever she is in the house...saa). There's also the wanting to eat every leaf/stick/string/fuzzball/rock she finds. (The only thing belonging to anyone she's chewed and damaged was my phone charger, and she hasn't really touched anything else. It's random paper and stuff that she wants.) This is a serious commitment here and I wasn't in the right place to make it; I'm trying to figure out a way to leave, and now I have someone to take with me. Crazy! Why would I do that? Not only is my cat glaring at me as though to say I've ruined her life and all our plans of living on our own some day; now I can't flip out, move across the country and live in my car. I've got a furry child to feed! Our other dog loves her though...
Aside from puppy, I've been experimenting with cooking all sorts of foreign foods and hosting very small dinner parties (with belly dancing in between while food is cooking). That and learning script formatting so I can finish my play has been keeping me occupied while I try to figure things out.
It's not that living with mother is bad. It's just the only clear vision I have is not here, not this; I just can't figure out how to get there. There are still some good here: recent shifts at work now mean I love everyone I work with (although certain aspects of that are complicated) and after all, I do have puppy. And I'd forgotten how happy Miyavi makes me! (In the process of getting time off to go to his concert in ATL in July RIGHT NOW!)