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C and i talked. good to get that over and done with. i thought i was loosing her. well i still feel that way but i know that shes just going through a hard time. we all hit them and well i never thought she would. always so bright and bubbly. Ive been trying to talk to my friends and see where we really stand and what not. ive gotten one down and two to go LOL. I just wish things would be easy for me to see. im not one who picks up on the hints easily. I dunno. maybe people are trying to get rid of me but i just dont see it. T and i have gotten closer we actually chill. its better now that shes moved. I dunno its easier seeing her when i want not all the time. Im finding my happy place LOL. Im trying to evaluate things in my life but i cant seem to get a grip on things. I look up to the skies every day and i just hope that im going to see something, just a bit of insite but as i gaze there is only clouds. Ive decided im going to take up scrying. who knows maybe that will help me find what im supost to do in this life. Ive become alot more confidnent but i still worry to much. Im finding my way through this dark forest finding my way to that meadow where everyone is young. I will dance in the dance in the heat of the father sun. Everyone thinks im a nutter because of my pagan faith. But what i dont understand isnt it better to have a crazy faith then none at all? Ive started to tell people how i really feel about them which is good. ive told some people to fuck off and some people that i truely care bout em. I dunno maybe i am crazy. maybe i dont know anything when i think i do. who knows. Man life is an acid trip with out the acid. Electric sheep are dreaming of your face