Update finally eh
so its the ho ho today. Meh. nothing really exciting happened. we opened our presents last night. Good times. i got less of a haul than i thought but im happy with what i got. this past little while ive begun to finally get where i want to be. Ive had a few reality checks but its not stopping me. Im plowing my way through life. Ive hit an up and i know that there will be downs.i think ive found what i want to do with life. Im not sure but i think im on my way.theres a course starting just before my birthday. You have to be 18 to go but hopefully they will let me in.If i get in the course i will get a years worth of training and then have the chance to join a coven. I feel myself looking for brothers and sisters on my path. Im sick of being the only one. most of the time im happy doing things by myself but i need someone to guide me right now. I worry about if im doing things wrong i need guidence. i know my guides will help and all but i need human pagan contact LOL. Im not quite happy with my progress over the past what eight years on this path. I know this is the path for me but i think i could do bigger and better things. I dont know. I want to feel like i belong in the pagan comunity i feel like im shunned for having no training but what i have taught myself from books. I just want to be where i need to be in this life.
Friends. Well this is a touchy subject right now. Im feeling soooo distant from my friends lately. Like i dont belong. Im happy with some of my friendships but others i see them failing in the near future. I dont know. Kelsey and i are back to normal and things feel good with her. I still need to go out and get her gift EEK. Ran outta money. Sorry sweetie. Im just feeling a little lost with the graces. Hey i just used something that finally fits my friends. N and C. Well I just feel like the serena outta the group and that im not needed anymore. Biggest fear by the way. I went from being best buds and hanging out all the time to seeing one maybe once a month. The other well kinda hard to see her when she is up in loops. I dont know. I know shes down and that she has family to see but why didnt she email/call/notify me in any way? She promised to hang out with me when she got back but whatever if she doesnt just means we are no where near where i thought we were.
School. Well school is going great. Im loving it. still got hw to finish but what ev. Ive found the subjects i really like and im excelling. The semesters almost over and im scared shitless. Provincials that im not prepared for. I have no way of studing for my sci prov. What ev if i fail its no biggie i just repeat the class LOL. Next semester im only gunna take three courses. Im taking english 11, math 11 p, and i think i will take socials 11 not sure about that one. I need to pace myself alittle more this comming semester. Im Psyched though. Im getting my education done and its making me feel good about myself. I hope i will know someone in my classes. i know that leslie is gunna be in my english which is soooooo much fun LOL. she always makes me smile. So funny. such a bitch LOL. i finally found a school where i feel like i belong. im not the outkast or the FAGGOT. Im just Kelii. Im sooo fucking happy that i dont have to put up with the shit i had to at the other schools. Im glad for friends.
well this brings us to the end of my update. the exits are located at the back of the ride. thank you and have a nice day. isnt curious soooooo fucking cute?
Friends. Well this is a touchy subject right now. Im feeling soooo distant from my friends lately. Like i dont belong. Im happy with some of my friendships but others i see them failing in the near future. I dont know. Kelsey and i are back to normal and things feel good with her. I still need to go out and get her gift EEK. Ran outta money. Sorry sweetie. Im just feeling a little lost with the graces. Hey i just used something that finally fits my friends. N and C. Well I just feel like the serena outta the group and that im not needed anymore. Biggest fear by the way. I went from being best buds and hanging out all the time to seeing one maybe once a month. The other well kinda hard to see her when she is up in loops. I dont know. I know shes down and that she has family to see but why didnt she email/call/notify me in any way? She promised to hang out with me when she got back but whatever if she doesnt just means we are no where near where i thought we were.
School. Well school is going great. Im loving it. still got hw to finish but what ev. Ive found the subjects i really like and im excelling. The semesters almost over and im scared shitless. Provincials that im not prepared for. I have no way of studing for my sci prov. What ev if i fail its no biggie i just repeat the class LOL. Next semester im only gunna take three courses. Im taking english 11, math 11 p, and i think i will take socials 11 not sure about that one. I need to pace myself alittle more this comming semester. Im Psyched though. Im getting my education done and its making me feel good about myself. I hope i will know someone in my classes. i know that leslie is gunna be in my english which is soooooo much fun LOL. she always makes me smile. So funny. such a bitch LOL. i finally found a school where i feel like i belong. im not the outkast or the FAGGOT. Im just Kelii. Im sooo fucking happy that i dont have to put up with the shit i had to at the other schools. Im glad for friends.
well this brings us to the end of my update. the exits are located at the back of the ride. thank you and have a nice day. isnt curious soooooo fucking cute?