when i dont want to?
So on wednesday i went to meditation group again. I went in and felt kinda funny. Walked into the room where we meditate and i could feel peoples energy more now since last week(we worked on enrgy play). So we sit down and Debbie starts to talk about crystals. Kelsey had been my security blanket and she wasnt sitting beside me. a littler weirded out but what ever. so were holding the rose quartz in our hands. Felt like mine dissapeared. So we start off by opening our chakras. We start from the bottom and work our way up. the colours are comming eaisly and all and then we get to the heart chakra. The light came and was blinding almost. inside the light was something small but i couldnt make it out. So i carried on. we had our crown chakra energy pouring down on un like a waterfall and i could feel the drops. So i decided im not going to try and project i just want to meditate. so everythings going good and then boom im in the forest clearing. I see the metalic flowers my waterfall and the fey. In my hand i have stone sword. its got like a quartz blade and an amythyst handle. Really pretty. So i have just projected. Shitty i know but what ever LOL. So im walking down the path towards my tower temple garden thing. I get to the stairs and start to walk up i get to the first plat form temple thingy and i lay down on the marble cuz the sun is just fryin me. So eventally i get up and i want to go up but there are no stairs. So im walking around the endge and there is a fog around my templey thingy. so im walking round and i see these starir and they go down so im running down the stairs like four at a time. And i goto this like catherdral thingy and my rose quartz is the key. so i walk in and there is this elf standing there with long flowing hair. Shes wearing this green dress. with silver endging. Truely beautiful. so i walked in and she started to come a little closer i gave her my stone and then the whole room filled with light. I get the stone back and she tells me i need some courage and basically to quit being such a pussy. so i walk out and i see my garden from the first projection all the flowers are growing but the Tall dark and Handsome one. so i plant somemore and then i prepare to leave. so i lye down on the grass and i look up at the clear sky. clouds are forming and then im floating up to them. the clouds suround me and then when they start to clear away i am in the room with my eyes closed