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ok so I just got back from Monica's. Surprisingly Miguel was there and Monica wasn't. Man, he seems so tired and I don't know, his voice is all weird sounding like when you get done screaming at a concert or when your sick. So I would assume that's from the shit he has been doing. I feel so helpless, I want to help him but I know he doesn't want it. At least he was taking care of his little brother, Brian. So I played with Brian for a little bit and the whole time I was there Miguel was crashed out. He was so tired he couldn't stay up for like 3 min. without falling asleep. I tried talking to him but no use talking to someone as tired as he was. I also got the feeling that he might have not cared I was there. I mean he let me in and crap but he wasn't like talking to me he just layed on his bed and started to fall asleep, until Brian would start messing around with him. I can't understand why the fuck he does teh shit he does. ohh...and everytime I hear that sentence Monica told me it drives me insane because it repeats in my mind, I think that can't be him, he wouldn't ask something like that. She told me that he asked his girlfriend if she would have sex with his friend as payment for some drugs. I don't know the whole story of what went on cuz I didn't get to ask him, and I need to ask monica. I just hope that it wasn't true or he was in a life or death situation. I don't know if I could hang out with someone like that. It's strange what a month can do to a person. I refuse to believe my friend asked that but part of me knows it's true. It's so hard to drop a friend I've had for so long, but if I have to I have to. That's my last resort but before I do that I'll try to help him but that asshole is thickheaded and his friends don't make things better. So I just can hope things will get better and some things will be answered