Life.......
It's almost 3 and I can't sleep........ I have class at 10, which wouldn't be bad, but I have to wake up early and prepare things for Andrew before I head out on my hour long car ride....
I feel-- for some reason-- incredibly stressed. Today was rough, yes.. but it doesn't feel like that has much to do with anything right now.... nothing, actually.
I've been writing mostly in my actualy journal lately.. I haven't touched LJ (or blogged sincerely on MySpace either) lately... I haven't really felt the need to express myself to the e-world, y'know? Tonight, for whatever reason, it almost comforts me to know that people, perhaps, are reading this... maybe some of you are up late with me: watching movies, cuddling with someone you love, finishing HW, eating some ice cream.. ha.. I want some.
I started school on Thursday. It was great.. I already sense that this is going to be an amazing year. Amazing. Between school, work, family, friends, best friends, my son, and my future..... things are bright-- so bright.
I hesitate to post this now.. I'm not sure why.. I just have this feeling that someone somewhere will form some kind of judgement somehow. It doesn't make much sense, does it? It's just what I feel. Call me insecure.. I dunno. It's now that I wished I had stayed on the phone longer.. dragged out the IM conversation a few minutes more.. woken up my mom when I really wanted to talk.
This night is one of those nights where I really hate being alone.. where I really just want to sit and talk.. or hold someone and be silent. Perhaps I'll go look up into the stars......... we're all under the same huge sky.. that draws me closer to you all. I love you.
I feel-- for some reason-- incredibly stressed. Today was rough, yes.. but it doesn't feel like that has much to do with anything right now.... nothing, actually.
I've been writing mostly in my actualy journal lately.. I haven't touched LJ (or blogged sincerely on MySpace either) lately... I haven't really felt the need to express myself to the e-world, y'know? Tonight, for whatever reason, it almost comforts me to know that people, perhaps, are reading this... maybe some of you are up late with me: watching movies, cuddling with someone you love, finishing HW, eating some ice cream.. ha.. I want some.
I started school on Thursday. It was great.. I already sense that this is going to be an amazing year. Amazing. Between school, work, family, friends, best friends, my son, and my future..... things are bright-- so bright.
I hesitate to post this now.. I'm not sure why.. I just have this feeling that someone somewhere will form some kind of judgement somehow. It doesn't make much sense, does it? It's just what I feel. Call me insecure.. I dunno. It's now that I wished I had stayed on the phone longer.. dragged out the IM conversation a few minutes more.. woken up my mom when I really wanted to talk.
This night is one of those nights where I really hate being alone.. where I really just want to sit and talk.. or hold someone and be silent. Perhaps I'll go look up into the stars......... we're all under the same huge sky.. that draws me closer to you all. I love you.