comfort in others
i don't see why other people find so much comfort in others.
i personally would much rather be by myself. actually id rather be with just alan.
&yes, i do enjoy a party or two- but not with random ass people.
even when i go to parties back at home, i rarely go up to others&start talking.
i dont do that. i just dont.
thats not to say that if i WANT to talk to someone that im intimidated, its just that..
i dont feel the need to make other people like me.
if they appreciate me&wanna talk to me, then they'll come talk to me.
i dont see the point in mindless, worthless chit chat.
if i have nothing important to say, id muuuch rather just sit quietly.
ive been doing that a lot more recently.
&i now understand the feeling of being lonely.
yet, i dont try to meet too many new people-
for some reason, i feel like i already know enough people to keep me happy.
&all i want is to go home
&be with my family
&with alan
.
i personally would much rather be by myself. actually id rather be with just alan.
&yes, i do enjoy a party or two- but not with random ass people.
even when i go to parties back at home, i rarely go up to others&start talking.
i dont do that. i just dont.
thats not to say that if i WANT to talk to someone that im intimidated, its just that..
i dont feel the need to make other people like me.
if they appreciate me&wanna talk to me, then they'll come talk to me.
i dont see the point in mindless, worthless chit chat.
if i have nothing important to say, id muuuch rather just sit quietly.
ive been doing that a lot more recently.
&i now understand the feeling of being lonely.
yet, i dont try to meet too many new people-
for some reason, i feel like i already know enough people to keep me happy.
&all i want is to go home
&be with my family
&with alan
.