from good to bad
so, today:
i spent the whole day with jo and lily in boston. it was so much fun! we went to chinatown, to the mfa, harvord squar, took a billion n a half trains. i loved it . and then i came home and made cookies for tomorrow! i brought some down to the boys and then the rest are coming to elsa's with me and jo. but anyways, like, a fewhours ago, my good day came to a crash.
Nathan called me and wanted to talk to me about something. His ex girlfriend is pregnant, with his child. and shes not sure if she wants nathan to be in the kids life or not. if she does, then her and nathan have to get married cuz her parents/family are crazy religious. and it blows cuz i really like nathan. and we were both looking for something to work out. but my relationship status lies in the hands of a girl i dont know.
i gave up on jason. i'll never be good enough [christian enough] for him and it sucks. cuz hes always in the back of my mind. i hate it. i ahvent talked to him in days, its really hurting me.
Justin, i gett o see him this summer so thats a plus.
i kinda miss pete. me and him are talking like friends now. and i can tell it bothers him .. but at teh same time, i know he's looking around. and i'll be happy if he moves on. i hate that i broke his heart, but i wasnt happy. and i dint want to go on living a lie and pretending i felt something was gunna work when i knew it wouldnt.
too many boys in my life.
i should really become a nun.
things never work out for me.
i always find assholes, or obssesive people.
im watching PHANTOM OF THE OPERA with Jo<3
ughh.. i dont know. soo many emotions.
i spent the whole day with jo and lily in boston. it was so much fun! we went to chinatown, to the mfa, harvord squar, took a billion n a half trains. i loved it . and then i came home and made cookies for tomorrow! i brought some down to the boys and then the rest are coming to elsa's with me and jo. but anyways, like, a fewhours ago, my good day came to a crash.
Nathan called me and wanted to talk to me about something. His ex girlfriend is pregnant, with his child. and shes not sure if she wants nathan to be in the kids life or not. if she does, then her and nathan have to get married cuz her parents/family are crazy religious. and it blows cuz i really like nathan. and we were both looking for something to work out. but my relationship status lies in the hands of a girl i dont know.
i gave up on jason. i'll never be good enough [christian enough] for him and it sucks. cuz hes always in the back of my mind. i hate it. i ahvent talked to him in days, its really hurting me.
Justin, i gett o see him this summer so thats a plus.
i kinda miss pete. me and him are talking like friends now. and i can tell it bothers him .. but at teh same time, i know he's looking around. and i'll be happy if he moves on. i hate that i broke his heart, but i wasnt happy. and i dint want to go on living a lie and pretending i felt something was gunna work when i knew it wouldnt.
too many boys in my life.
i should really become a nun.
things never work out for me.
i always find assholes, or obssesive people.
im watching PHANTOM OF THE OPERA with Jo<3
ughh.. i dont know. soo many emotions.