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lately it seems everything that has potential to be good is taken away. I dont know what i did to deserve any of this and i know its not all directed at me..but i can't stand to let her go.i havent been in tears for the longest time..and this brings me to my knees....you know people think they have it bad when the person they love doesnt want to talk tot hem anymore...well try having them leave your life for what seems realistically like forever.its like its too uch to take and lately i cant do it man..its like its worse than she is dying because i know she is leaving and i know she'll be out there but ill never get to see her ever again...i hate this..this sucks and its all i have to live..So i guess i will sit here and listen to depressive songs about women until i start to bleed from my eyes from the lack of tears. i have tried so hard to tell everyone i dont care and that it would make me happy..but if this what you people call happiness i would hate to see a bad day...i can't take it anymore man i just cant...and its funny because last year when i really finally got a friend i realized i could trust and give secrets to he moved to a different country..If this is because of bad karma id like to know what the fuck i did wrong because i never in my life have done anything of this degree to anyone..i dont want to go to sleep for im afraid when i wake up she'll be gone...and then i only shout out louder when i relaize she was never here..im just so stressed...between her leaving and my grades and my problem with pot..which isnt a big problem its more of a decision but its just so fucking scary..the world that is...and its said that everybody lives once well..i figure i should you know...well how the fuck do i do that if everything good is taken from me!? You know what Fuck it who cares...i know half of you reading this probably think im being melodramatic and shit..well fuck you guys..i know who my true friends are.