i don't know if this will make sense to anyone...but i'd appreciate feedback
i look at everyone around me and wonder, why do people drag themselves through pains that are never going to cease? in hopes that it's all going to be okay? in hopes of it getting better? some things never, ever, EVER get better. sometimes, you have to break all the blocks down...take the tower apart that you've been building.
it's like legos. you can start out making something, but it's not turning out how you want it to be, it doesn't look or seem the way you want...so you have to take them all apart and start with tiny pieces all over again, to make the real structure that you want, you have to start over and make sure that it's sturdy, it won't fall over on you and bruise your toe, it's not what you want it to be. you don't feel safe.
legos, building blocks, lincoln logs.
do you like my analogy?
i've found that i can play with the same legos and have the most beautiful, wonderful tower built, then see a new box of different legos that i haven't touched yet...so in all my haste to play with the new ones, i knock down the tower i've so carefully constructed...and the new tower i make is nowhere nears as good.
see this?
i'm learning.
you should, as well.
i see some pretty pink legos.
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i got off work & drove straight to Ryan's.
it took about 45 minutes to get there, because of traffic.
he left after an hour to go to a club.
i'll admit, i was disappointed, but i set myself up for it.
i'm going to make an awesome cd, then listen to it all the time.
my optimism has faded, but there's a few lovelies left who might bring me joy in my life.
picnic, m'lady?
it's like legos. you can start out making something, but it's not turning out how you want it to be, it doesn't look or seem the way you want...so you have to take them all apart and start with tiny pieces all over again, to make the real structure that you want, you have to start over and make sure that it's sturdy, it won't fall over on you and bruise your toe, it's not what you want it to be. you don't feel safe.
legos, building blocks, lincoln logs.
do you like my analogy?
i've found that i can play with the same legos and have the most beautiful, wonderful tower built, then see a new box of different legos that i haven't touched yet...so in all my haste to play with the new ones, i knock down the tower i've so carefully constructed...and the new tower i make is nowhere nears as good.
see this?
i'm learning.
you should, as well.
i see some pretty pink legos.
______________________________________________________
i got off work & drove straight to Ryan's.
it took about 45 minutes to get there, because of traffic.
he left after an hour to go to a club.
i'll admit, i was disappointed, but i set myself up for it.
i'm going to make an awesome cd, then listen to it all the time.
my optimism has faded, but there's a few lovelies left who might bring me joy in my life.
picnic, m'lady?