I need a friend.
So, I'm coming up with this from the top of my head. I hope I can get this out right without anyone getting pissed off about it. I have come to the conclusion I'm losing my friends again. Not necessarily losing them, but just losing contact. They don't even talk to me anymore, and I'm quite sick of it. I'm tired of being ditched. I'm tired of being lied to. I hate it when they're all together, and I'm sitting at home doing nothing. I believe in the theory," You lose one friend. You lose all friends. You have nothing." It really sucks because I miss having a friend to be able to talk to and tell everything. When I'm having a problem or hurting, I want to be able to call someone knowing that they will make me feel better. A few nights ago, someone hurt me so bad I didn't know what to do. I didn't know who to call, and I couldn't help but hurting myself again. I will never understand myself. Comment and criticize me; I don't care. I'm losing all hope, and I don't know what to believe in anymore. When I think of school, I think of me depressed. Dammit, I hate that. I want to just go to bed and wake up with everything back to normal.
Sorry. For expressing my feelings.
Jane.
"You and me. You know that we were always funny in a car crash sort of way."