Another day, another heart break
Everything seems to happen for a reason and i think that the way that things are happening right now are only meant to be. i used to be the person that would listen to other ppl and let them influence my decicions. But i think that things have changed for the better i guess. not everything is what it seems i know that ppl have been noticing that i have been down latly i just want you all to know that i am all right and that the world does move on. But i know now what i have to do and i think that even tho it might take all of me to do it, it has to be done, i think that the ones closest to me are right. I have had no time for anyone else really, b/c this person is who i think about constantly, but someone else told me today that i need to move on. everything will be alright. And for some reason... i beleive him and i think that the things that people are slowly starting to tell me are starting to look true and the more i think about it, the more i feel like i've been lied to for a very long time. I dont think that i need to be treated like this anymore and i think that things are going to change very soon. but im not sure anymore.. honestly. but if he doesnt try to make things work, then i am done. i have a thing against pushing to be friends with someone. and right now i think that is what i am doing. afraid of commitment is what everyone is telling me, well the answer is yes...i am, i noticed that latley i let things pass me by and i dont let myself see the things that i could have had until i let them go. i think that this is why i am so afraid to let him go. i am afraid that somewhere along the line i will be looking back at what i might have been able to have. but whatever the more i see him the more i feel like i've been stepped on. But the world goes round, no matter how dizzy it makes you, to yourself you have to be true.
*~*~Amanda~*~*
*~*~Amanda~*~*