Growth
So the past few weeks have been very enhancing for me...
Wow is not even close to adiquate (sp?) to describe what has been going on..
I have gotten in touch with the "Autumn" I have always been but havent had a chance to release in a long time. I have come to terms with a part of me that I have been missing out on for a long while and I am happy for that. I even gained a friendship in this process...I have to learn to accept the things I cannot change...I need to just "Smile" and thats what Im gonna do...even if it kills me...
Things with the mister are getting better..I can sure say that, and I am thankful. I dont need all this stress.
Ya know, some one very intelligent and beautiful told me to just be 19, be Autumn, be happy...hell just be...and I love her for it. Thanks, its what i needed..
So, I have decided to do just that..I am going to do what I want, when I want..I am still the girlfriend...I still love him, hell i still come home to him every afternoon..so there should be no reason for me to be able to just be me...
I know to most of you this entry will make no sense..it is not because i dont love you, or that i do not value you as a friend....it is instead because I have just learned how to deal with it...and I couldnt really talk about it with most people...for fear that their views of me would change,,,hell just for fear..I dunno..I still cant really talk about it...but hey maybe soon...
Thanks for listening..
Wow is not even close to adiquate (sp?) to describe what has been going on..
I have gotten in touch with the "Autumn" I have always been but havent had a chance to release in a long time. I have come to terms with a part of me that I have been missing out on for a long while and I am happy for that. I even gained a friendship in this process...I have to learn to accept the things I cannot change...I need to just "Smile" and thats what Im gonna do...even if it kills me...
Things with the mister are getting better..I can sure say that, and I am thankful. I dont need all this stress.
Ya know, some one very intelligent and beautiful told me to just be 19, be Autumn, be happy...hell just be...and I love her for it. Thanks, its what i needed..
So, I have decided to do just that..I am going to do what I want, when I want..I am still the girlfriend...I still love him, hell i still come home to him every afternoon..so there should be no reason for me to be able to just be me...
I know to most of you this entry will make no sense..it is not because i dont love you, or that i do not value you as a friend....it is instead because I have just learned how to deal with it...and I couldnt really talk about it with most people...for fear that their views of me would change,,,hell just for fear..I dunno..I still cant really talk about it...but hey maybe soon...
Thanks for listening..