wanting to let go
I think that i am setting myself up for failure again...i want to just let go...cut my losses and get on with my life...but there is so much more there..am i being selfish in wanting more? or am i giving up on myself by not saying anything...i want to talk to you..the time is never right...i am so confused...i was so scared when i thought i had lost you for good...and now that you are here...i want you away...i dont want to feel like this anymore..my stomach turns...i cant say what i want...can it just go back to two weeks ago? i wont be an ass...ill know then what i know now...and you wont leave...for now all i can do is just cast my thoughts out there..no one knows this..you forgot it...forget me.