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Having one of those very self reflective days... rare given how little time I've had lately.
Was thinking about what I feel for Brian. What it is, what it isn't. You know, it's funny... I do love him in a way... it's just not in my heart. I mean, it was going there. My feelings did beging to develope, compound on what I had for him as my student. However, I know there's feeling there for him. Always has been. I was drawn from the very first time I saw him... it was recognition. I always felt like there was something soul and Karma going on. My tarot Reader told me the same... why when I knew I should stay away, I was still so tempted to play with it. I mean I'm sexually drawn as well, but that's there with others without my need to pursue it. I'm tempted to go get some past life work done, to better understand this. What the lessons are, why it was at all.
Dunno, just interesting.
Was thinking about what I feel for Brian. What it is, what it isn't. You know, it's funny... I do love him in a way... it's just not in my heart. I mean, it was going there. My feelings did beging to develope, compound on what I had for him as my student. However, I know there's feeling there for him. Always has been. I was drawn from the very first time I saw him... it was recognition. I always felt like there was something soul and Karma going on. My tarot Reader told me the same... why when I knew I should stay away, I was still so tempted to play with it. I mean I'm sexually drawn as well, but that's there with others without my need to pursue it. I'm tempted to go get some past life work done, to better understand this. What the lessons are, why it was at all.
Dunno, just interesting.