when it rains, it pours!

Jun 02, 2008 23:03

I just landed on something major and so entirely beneficial for my career, its ungodly. I just hope i don't fuck it up, I always fuck things up.

I just feel like all these months I've been wishing for some break, and here it is. And now that things have fallen into my lap, here's my chance to prove to myself I can do this. I can handle this. I am my own future, and I am strong enough to make that change happen.

It's funny when you barely believe in yourself, and someone takes the time to believe in you and your capabilities, that you are completely blown away. Capabilities? what capabilities? I'm so use to not being trusted and being looked down on -- like "oh, well, it's just maria..." "she's too scatterbrained..." -- because of my intense personality, I turn promoters away. It's nice to have someone believe in your potential. I know my own potential. I know what I'm worth...and I deserve this, I need this, and I am ready?

The store is up, and the website is running. I'm kind of sad that i've dumped close to $50 for everything, and haven't seen progression. I know I need to market more. Ugh... I'm just SO impatient. Love me! Love my line! Buy it even!

meh, I wish.
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