Things are looking better

[assleyb1]

Well I have told you all that are close to me that I didn't like to leave the house cause I felt like I needed to lock myself in here and it would help me get over Brandi, well I was way wrong. Since last weekend I have been going out doing redneck shit, and I will tell you what yes I do think about Brandi but it don't hurt like it used to.. It is nice to get out it helped alot I guess, Friday night when I saw her in the hotel that was the last straw with me, I think thats why I feel this way... I kinda feel like I am starting to hate her, I think that getting out and hanging out with people who enjoy chilling with me is good for me, I am always meeting new people now, and I am always being told I am beatufuil, and I am actaully starting to feel good about myself.. I actaully think that I am pretty now... Last time I wrote was Saturday durning the day, well since then Saturday night me, Betty, Phillip, and Brian went to Ft. Myers beach in his truck hehe a nice ass truck, redneck shit we all love the big trucks with the big tires and country playing.. Hehe anyways we got there at like 1:30 am and Brian is richy richy richy, so he gave his bank card to Betty and I and gave us his password and told us to go take 400 dollars out, I was like ok shit, aint gotta tell me twice.. So then we got a a hotel suite, it was nice... Had 2 rooms, Betty and her man Phillip slept in one room and Brian and I slept in the other, we went swimming at 3am.. Everyone was drunk but as you all know I don't drink... Anyways we headed home Sunday morning cause of Easter and all, and got home we all went and did our family things, Brian has 3 kids and a wife that he is in the middle of a divorce with, Phillip lives with his sister and she has a son so he had that, Betty had to go visit Amy's grave, and I had church and family dinner, once we were done with that we all meant back up and went out to a trail and shot the gun for alittle while, fun fun... Then we went and Brian shot a rabbit and skinned it, eww but shit if I hang out with rednecks I have to get used to it right>?? I just hate people killing animals but it's something I have to get used to, then we went a checked Brian's hog traps and put more corn in it.. Then we went cow tippin, which is you sneak up on a cow cause the sleep standing and you push it and it falls down, and that's it.. But we didn't get to do it cause we thought the cow was sleeping until we pulled up next to it, and then it looked at it and then Betty's wild ass was jumpin at it and it got scared and ran.. hehe After that we went riding in some more trails and I didn't come home until 2am... And I had school this morning, that sucked... Betty and I had to go see her mom today she is looking at 10-12 years of prison, so we went and talked with her lawyer and all that law shit, then we came back to my house got my moms car and we went and got us some chinese food, and went and took Phillip some food.... Then came home went out with Tara for awhile, Tara and Betty got into a fight and broke up cause there is a picture of Betty and I and tit's hehe opps.... Tara found it called her a slut and etc, then Phillip, Betty and I took off and Tara followed us until we hit the trail, and she couldn't get her car through that of course... So then we were in the safe, after that we went and found Brian and it was back to the 4 of us, like always... We built a fire and they drank beer and stood by the fire, then I came home at a ok hour of the night I got here at 11:18pm.. GOOD GIRL!!!! I have to wake up at 6:30 to call Phillip and Betty and make sure they are awake so Phillip can bring Betty here and we can go to school, and Phillip work... Betty and I are suppose to work in Sebring tomorrow, but Phillip has to have his truck for work, and Brian owns his own bussiness so of course he has to have his truck, and then Tara and Betty are fighting so that leaves Tara out of the picture, so we might have to wait until next week before we can go... We will see, hmm I wanted to tell you all something else?????????....

Ohh ok Jonathan I think is mad at me, cause the last time we talked I told him what I did the last few days and he said oh your hanging with a bunch of rednecks and I said yeah why??? He got mad that I was out, but he is aloud, anyways I haven't heard from him since then which was last Wensday which was the 23rd. OHHH WELL I don't care fuck em, feed him rice.. This weekend Betty, Phillip, Brian, and myself are going to Daytona.... It's going to be a blast.. Brian is a sweet heart but he is going through a divroce and we have an ago different..... He is soo much fun and he adores me, he thinks I am just the best thing that ever walked, lil does he know.. Anyways I am off to bed Friday I sleep from 5am until 6:30am then went right back at it, then Saturday we went to sleep at 4:30 cause we had just got done at the pool and we were showering, and we went to bed at 4:30am woke up and drove 2 hours, we woke up at 7:30am then last night I fall asleep at 3am and woke up at 7am, yeah I am going to get me some good as sleep Night love and miss you all/ Paris