scared
ok so i finally found a job .. my last day at mercedes is the 20th of june and the very next day i start at Rossman, Baumberger, Reboso & Spier. Law firm in downtown Miami. [and i know most of you are thinking 'why downtown? good luck' ] but i dont think of it like that. Its a new beginning a NEW job, finally.. somewhere i can possibly make my mark. a NORMAL job lol. mon - fri 8:30-5. I'm so relieved. And i'm also relieved that they provide insurance, benefits, sick + personal days, 401K, paid parking/metrorail.. etc. Of course this is after my probation period. So it'll either make or break me. Once i get settled there i can finally start school again [HOPEFULLY] lol
And then that comes to .. moving in with Jose. Before i found a job i was all 'yes i cant wait' but now i feel scared. which is normal dont get me wrong but i really dont want to mess anything up .. and i dont want to ruin anything. I don't think he understands where i'm coming from. Its not that i dont want to, because i do .. believe me i do! But he doesn't understand that i've never lived outside of my house before and as much as i hate it and want to get out it's still going to be hard for me. I'm basically going to be put OUT of my comfort zone. When i want to be alone, where am i going to go? When we have a fight, i can't kick him out.. its HIS house. What about everything i'm so used to? Like the juice my mom buys or my moms cooking? What about my laundry? oh no thats not even a question .. no matter what NOBODY IS TOUCHING MY PANTIES, hell no not even my shirts. I just dont like that lol. I'm sure i'll be fine, but there is always the 'what if' in the back of your head. But, its life you never know unless you DO it. and that is true my friends lol.
so i think ive decided to take metrorail to work. and im scared of that too
damn i need to stop being a pussy. lol!
i shall update later on. but i can't wait.. i have a feeling this new chapter will be good and i'll finally be happy with my job :D
And then that comes to .. moving in with Jose. Before i found a job i was all 'yes i cant wait' but now i feel scared. which is normal dont get me wrong but i really dont want to mess anything up .. and i dont want to ruin anything. I don't think he understands where i'm coming from. Its not that i dont want to, because i do .. believe me i do! But he doesn't understand that i've never lived outside of my house before and as much as i hate it and want to get out it's still going to be hard for me. I'm basically going to be put OUT of my comfort zone. When i want to be alone, where am i going to go? When we have a fight, i can't kick him out.. its HIS house. What about everything i'm so used to? Like the juice my mom buys or my moms cooking? What about my laundry? oh no thats not even a question .. no matter what NOBODY IS TOUCHING MY PANTIES, hell no not even my shirts. I just dont like that lol. I'm sure i'll be fine, but there is always the 'what if' in the back of your head. But, its life you never know unless you DO it. and that is true my friends lol.
so i think ive decided to take metrorail to work. and im scared of that too
damn i need to stop being a pussy. lol!
i shall update later on. but i can't wait.. i have a feeling this new chapter will be good and i'll finally be happy with my job :D