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weighing pros and cons never has helped me with my decision making, so i don't think i'll turn to it now.
especially when cons are made up of distance. distance reasoning. reasoning with. distance. distance.
i'm being haunted, i think, by mistakes i'm afraid we'll make.
never ever did i think.
it would. happen.

i was accepted into LVC's music program on the spot, so we need to see if admissions will give me a chance.
it looks pretty good. hopefully i'll hear good news from Rowan in the next few days. 
i don't really want to go to either of these schools but it's a good confidence booster.
rowan's campus wasn't impressive, at least the part i saw last weekend.
i remember it was nice where tommy lived but nahhhh.
all i'm going to concentrate on now is killing the UArts audition.
it would be incredible to go there.
and if jessica decides to stay at EU, we're getting an apt together in the city.
probably college city because i've fallen in love with it, but the cheaper the better and I doubt we'll have a huge amount of options.

i have class soon, even.
i emailed her and told her i couldn't make it thinking i'd still be at Jacobs.
alas, i am home now.
whatever
i'll go
it's choir.
and yet; hahah.
ok.

I'm not leaving while you're still scared.