honesty
tonight, we were at a party in davis. backyard. christmas lights.
i saw rachel watching me and when she'd look away, i'd look back. i was running through my head about how if amanda e. talked to me, i'd ask her if she'd ever been knocked out, and if she wanted to. i know i was being dramatic. i'd never hit a girl. how fucking charming of me. but jeezus i was mad. i'd like to say i was still mad at myself. but i wasn't.
i saw rachel watching me and when she'd look away, i'd look back. i was running through my head about how if amanda e. talked to me, i'd ask her if she'd ever been knocked out, and if she wanted to. i know i was being dramatic. i'd never hit a girl. how fucking charming of me. but jeezus i was mad. i'd like to say i was still mad at myself. but i wasn't.