The Life We Must Lead
How many things hold you to this earth? How many things do you love with every fiber of you're being? How far would you be willing to go to see that they are happy and are safe, to see that nothing every harms them so that they never know what the word pain means. This hole world was created by pain and built by war everything you see and was the after affect of war and hate. I would give up anything and fight to death to make sure my sister never see's the hate of this world, to make sure all she ever knows is love and peace. But how can you do that with so much going on, how can you keep someone in the light when all around you darkness is closeing in, you can't light up a dark world with just a match. Everywhere I go I see this I can feel it, it's like there is nothing you can do but watch as everyone fall. I have stepped in and out of this feeling on my life but now there are things that hold me closer to the light as I put it, my sister mainly I can look at her and see nothing by love and pure peace and I don't want her to lose that but I know over time she will see this place for what it really is, you can not watch over them forever. I have my own life to lead and my own things to take care of, some times it's hard doing what needs to be done I enjoyed my old life more really but this is just as good I have everything to be thankful for. It's funny to me for some reason I care more about the women in my life then men, I mean theres only 1 guy that I would do anything for he's like the brother I never had. The girl that I care about who is not in my family she is like the missing link for me it's like you go you're hole life looking for something and when you think you have found it it's something totally diff. but you realize it's something more then you could have ever thought of having. I want my sister to have that but I want her to have it without going though all this other shit to find it I just hope she makes the right choice's in her life. My grandfathers very last words in life were ''Out of darkness into light'' he never really said them they are written on his tombstone.