Tonight
I have never felt better right now. It was calming, relaxing, peaceful, happy, and very exotic lol. It's funny how you hate something and turn you're back on it but when faced with it you don't seem to remember why hate it's face and when you feel it you don't remember why you ever ran from it to begin with. It's very different this time...I really can not put it into words but this might help. Think as if all you're life you have done nothing but drink water you don't know of anything else that's out there all you know is the water thats it. But one day you see a class of lemonade and it does look scary at first cause you don't know it is I mean you have never seen it before you don't know what to make of it so you're scared. You work up the balls to pick it up and now you start to feel it and it's not that bad and then you try it and god it's like nothing you have ever gone though in you're hole life. It's as if you have tasted life for the first time or something and you just feel great lol. Out of anyone this could have happened with I'm very glad it was her. You know that feeling where you are so relaxed and you are so into the moment that you forget about everythings else and fade into sleep I almost did that but if I were to have slept then I would have missed all the other moments lol. Love is a force not to fuck with but you still have to get close to it to understand it and you're self. Everyone is sick around here and on lots of meds but I hope that will pass soon cause I feel even worse right now due to a ''rising problem'' a sirten person knows what I mean by that. Anyway things have to be done tomorrow so I leave you with this. You're worst fear can be you're best feeling.