Nanny
What is one more hour? One more day? One more year? Just one more minute with her. I'll tell you what it is. It is having just that one more hour, day, year, or minute with her that you don't have to go thought the rest of your life without. Death comes to us all...what can you do? Nothing just kick back, smile and welcome it is all. My Grandmother is like my 2nd mother to me always has been and to see her fade away day by day, to watch ''Death'' slowly take her from us is indescribable in words. I feel everything at once every emotion runs me down like a comet crashing on top of me. Mom is not taking this well at all, most people are not for that matter. I guess I just stay out of it all and deal with it my own way I mean what else can I do cry and be upset all the time, that is not fair to her, for her to watch that kind of stuff for her last few months. God it hurts so much sometimes. She asked me 2 things before and after she dies and I'll be sure to see to both of them no matter what! How does one work without the things in life to make sure they themselves work? How will I..We go on without her? I think a part of me is going with her that day, I think that also she will leave a part of her to put back in it's place when that happens. God I can't even get these words to sound right nothing really helps right now..only time will help I guess and funny the one thing you would go give anything for you can not have...you can never have it no matter what and some how you have to take that and live with it. It's best not to remember the pain or the suffering that one has to take in life and in death, you have to think of everything that person ''Was'' and always will be even in death. Not even now does she fear it she still laughs when she can and she still drinks and smokes lol because that is who she is. Now and after the question still remains ''Why'' and I think I know that answer and someone very close helped me find it before blaming someone else and turning my back on every thing that I should be looking at right in the eye's. In all the pain, suffering, and hate that ''Death'' brings....Happiness still shines bright even without hope. You will forever be a part of me and you helped me be the man I,am today. I love you always and I hope to see you again one day.