'...i think that i should start by sayin..YOOO...'
last night?
what do you think i did?
went to Shiraz's
he got AC in his room so we can actually lay near eachother and not sweat to death. we did it..yeah so what. Its so funny that im so 'RAHHHHH' about using a second form of protection. I was telling him last night that me and douchebag Boone never used condoms...and i didnt think twice about it. Maybe cause of my current scare mode im in...
I was teasing him about his 10 girlfriends and he said 'no i only have one girl right now. and thats you' harhar. ok and then we were watching fun with dick and jane and he went to make some food he had had left over from eating at his rents'...and i did something bad. i looked through his phone. messages and recent calls. the only calls and msgs were from me. ditty. some person who he named 'jazzy eazzy' or something...but the thing that made me mad was that my name is in his phone book as 'jk'..what the fuck does THAT stand for...i dont think it stands for just kidding. im not sure. maybe he just had it in there like that when we first started hanging out and cole was all..you know you know. i felt bad. cause i dont EVER do those sorts of thangs. i shoulda started looking as soon as he left the room...so i could snoop around some more. i was scared he was gunna come back and then id feel like an asshole.
i just dont know how i feel about this. i dunno how he looks at the situation and how he looks at "us". i dont wanna ask. i think id scare him away. and we are both dealing with other thangs right now. its just one of those thangs where i think at this time. its better to be just chillin you know you know?
what do you think i did?
went to Shiraz's
he got AC in his room so we can actually lay near eachother and not sweat to death. we did it..yeah so what. Its so funny that im so 'RAHHHHH' about using a second form of protection. I was telling him last night that me and douchebag Boone never used condoms...and i didnt think twice about it. Maybe cause of my current scare mode im in...
I was teasing him about his 10 girlfriends and he said 'no i only have one girl right now. and thats you' harhar. ok and then we were watching fun with dick and jane and he went to make some food he had had left over from eating at his rents'...and i did something bad. i looked through his phone. messages and recent calls. the only calls and msgs were from me. ditty. some person who he named 'jazzy eazzy' or something...but the thing that made me mad was that my name is in his phone book as 'jk'..what the fuck does THAT stand for...i dont think it stands for just kidding. im not sure. maybe he just had it in there like that when we first started hanging out and cole was all..you know you know. i felt bad. cause i dont EVER do those sorts of thangs. i shoulda started looking as soon as he left the room...so i could snoop around some more. i was scared he was gunna come back and then id feel like an asshole.
i just dont know how i feel about this. i dunno how he looks at the situation and how he looks at "us". i dont wanna ask. i think id scare him away. and we are both dealing with other thangs right now. its just one of those thangs where i think at this time. its better to be just chillin you know you know?