Things
-I miss only certain people.
-I miss only certain things.
-I miss the insanity that my house is.
-I will be home ASAP.
-I know it's weird, but I have had so so much time to think, and I feel better about myself.
-I don't feel superior, but I do feel confident.
-I feel that my lifestyle was appropriate for me, a new start wasn't what I needed. I was wrong, and I am capable of admitting that.
-I don't have to care about everything. It's unnecessary. But I will continue being as helpful as possible, it's my passion to help as many people as possible.
-The people I miss? I do consider them better than everyone else, and if you don't like it, well that's too bad. Sorry if you're not on the list. You weren't first string, and you don't get to have my life, or my brain space.
-I don't have to devote every moment to everyone else, I do deserve to help myself.
-I am always going to be afraid of social interaction, there's no stopping it. It doesn't mean I have to let it stop me though.
-If you can believe it, I've gotten some what paler.
-No I don't have to care. No I don't have to do everything to help you. No one elses life revolves around you. You are the only person that has to be concerned with yourself, no one else even has to give you a second glance. Learn to help yourself, learn to be independent, do not rely on others (Do not rely on me) to always be there. No one can be there for you all the time. No one has to make you feel better about yourself, no one has to help you, you have to feel okay about yourself first, before other people are going to feel okay about you.
-I know it sounds bitchy and catty, but I don't care all the time, I listen sometimes just because you need to be listened to, and if I don't listen to you, who will? I'm almost always there when people need me, but I dont have to be. Some people call me nice, but I'm not that nice, sometimes, I do things for myself, sometimes I help people hoping sometime in the future when I need help, I will get the help I need. Sometimes I really do care, and feel bad, but I don't always care.
-Honestly? When I get home? I don't know if I will be able to tolerate everyone elses lack of independence, I may cut some people out entirely. People that weren't there for me when I needed them. If someone needs you? It's always best to be there for them, because each life is valuable, but sometimes, it just doesn't work. Sometimes when I need to vent or talk? I don't have anywhere to go. Sometimes? When I feel happy? I don't have anyone to tell. Which broke my heart in the first place.
-I dont think people are conscious of the way they affect me, which is my own fault, I don't tell you. I intellectualize and demean my own feelings, so how could you possibly know when something hurts? Sometimes, I tell you, and it doesn't mean anything. Honestly? I take a lot of things personally, and it has caused me to hide it. I've never been my biggest fan, and sometimes I don't have any fans, but that's okay. Right now? I can clearly see who cares about me. The people that still talk to me? They mean the most.
-No one is going to read this, no one is even going to get halfway through. What do I care? I do. I wish I could explain myself forever to everyone, because it's not that you don't understand me, it's not that I'm misunderstood, it's that I feel sometimes I don't get out what I need to say.
-Honestly? Some people still aren't going to like me. Some people will be pleased that I've gained some confidence. But really? Hardly any of the former are important, actually, really, none of them are any more. The latter however? Those are the people that mean the world to me. I wouldn't be alive without them, no really.
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent" I know how often that's quoted and it's quite cliche, but it's true. And guess what? No one has my consent. Not too many people really know who I am.
-I miss only certain things.
-I miss the insanity that my house is.
-I will be home ASAP.
-I know it's weird, but I have had so so much time to think, and I feel better about myself.
-I don't feel superior, but I do feel confident.
-I feel that my lifestyle was appropriate for me, a new start wasn't what I needed. I was wrong, and I am capable of admitting that.
-I don't have to care about everything. It's unnecessary. But I will continue being as helpful as possible, it's my passion to help as many people as possible.
-The people I miss? I do consider them better than everyone else, and if you don't like it, well that's too bad. Sorry if you're not on the list. You weren't first string, and you don't get to have my life, or my brain space.
-I don't have to devote every moment to everyone else, I do deserve to help myself.
-I am always going to be afraid of social interaction, there's no stopping it. It doesn't mean I have to let it stop me though.
-If you can believe it, I've gotten some what paler.
-No I don't have to care. No I don't have to do everything to help you. No one elses life revolves around you. You are the only person that has to be concerned with yourself, no one else even has to give you a second glance. Learn to help yourself, learn to be independent, do not rely on others (Do not rely on me) to always be there. No one can be there for you all the time. No one has to make you feel better about yourself, no one has to help you, you have to feel okay about yourself first, before other people are going to feel okay about you.
-I know it sounds bitchy and catty, but I don't care all the time, I listen sometimes just because you need to be listened to, and if I don't listen to you, who will? I'm almost always there when people need me, but I dont have to be. Some people call me nice, but I'm not that nice, sometimes, I do things for myself, sometimes I help people hoping sometime in the future when I need help, I will get the help I need. Sometimes I really do care, and feel bad, but I don't always care.
-Honestly? When I get home? I don't know if I will be able to tolerate everyone elses lack of independence, I may cut some people out entirely. People that weren't there for me when I needed them. If someone needs you? It's always best to be there for them, because each life is valuable, but sometimes, it just doesn't work. Sometimes when I need to vent or talk? I don't have anywhere to go. Sometimes? When I feel happy? I don't have anyone to tell. Which broke my heart in the first place.
-I dont think people are conscious of the way they affect me, which is my own fault, I don't tell you. I intellectualize and demean my own feelings, so how could you possibly know when something hurts? Sometimes, I tell you, and it doesn't mean anything. Honestly? I take a lot of things personally, and it has caused me to hide it. I've never been my biggest fan, and sometimes I don't have any fans, but that's okay. Right now? I can clearly see who cares about me. The people that still talk to me? They mean the most.
-No one is going to read this, no one is even going to get halfway through. What do I care? I do. I wish I could explain myself forever to everyone, because it's not that you don't understand me, it's not that I'm misunderstood, it's that I feel sometimes I don't get out what I need to say.
-Honestly? Some people still aren't going to like me. Some people will be pleased that I've gained some confidence. But really? Hardly any of the former are important, actually, really, none of them are any more. The latter however? Those are the people that mean the world to me. I wouldn't be alive without them, no really.
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent" I know how often that's quoted and it's quite cliche, but it's true. And guess what? No one has my consent. Not too many people really know who I am.