Jul 12, 2004 20:47
Whats up lucky ass holes. Im in a fucken month of hell. You have no idea how bad it is over here. I envy your freedom. I swear this is prison.
SO i started reading this book the ohter day. And i finished it that same day. IT was such a good book. Exactly how Chelsea described it when she said, "I just couldn't put it down." I thought to myself about taht book sooo much. and i just couldnt get over how good it was. ANd i still dont think i got enough out of it. Well im in china right now. the clock says 20:49 but i figure its lying. Its not realyl what i expected. But than again... i didnt realyl expect much. All i know is im gonna be coming home a better person. and mabie my hair an inch longer... hopefully. That book really changed me.... Its really good. I hate it when ppl write alot in their journals... because i hate reading it... except that i always do... So im gonna type a fucken lot cause im BOREED AS HELL.
So i met my roommate the other day.... hes fat and smiles.... i couldnt ask for worst. If chason was here... he'd laugh his ass off. But hes a nice guy. He clogged my toilet 3 times.... i havent used it yet... and i refuse to take a shower. i swear on my life. Im a lil worried everytime he uses the can. And he farts all the time.... and says "OKay Sorrie" and What am i supposed to say to that... I say ITS FINE!
So this campus is divided by floors... im on the 3rd ... and its the AMERICAN Floor.... 4th floor is French.... and ect. Its really kinda kul in a way.... there are nobody really kul on my floor. I mean.. theyre alright... alot of them are really young. BUt these girls katie and charolete are fucken hilaroius. I sorta think of them as friends. but were really not. We spent the day together yesterday. Katie is realyl dark and likes some of that satanic shit. Which you think be creepy ... but i think of it as ... an oppurtunity to meet some1 new.... shes actually quite prettie. shes prettie quiet also. I dont talk to too many ppl on my floor....
So today i was walking around.... and i ran into these French ppl... they're fucken awsome. I think i love them.. Je Tian... thats love ... or something like it. They're teaching me shit. Especially this one girl.... shes actually sitting next to me right now.... her names Ysa??? im not sure the spelling... but she exceptionally nice.... quite prettie also.. .but not goth. or nothing. I've been doing practicalyl nothing hte past few weeks... .But i've been thinking alot. Like thats all i do. Im acutally sorta glad im here... for that reason exactly.
I sat in my rock hard bed the other night ... fucken lonley as hell. And the only thing i really want ... is to be loved. Like truly loved in every way. Thats probably asking for too much. I dont care about anything else. And i bet that sounds prettie FUcken Emo... but.... If me being emo, Lets some1 else give me shit for it.... at least im giving them purpose right?? or at least for the moment.
I miss so many ppl... like more than i thought i would. I especially miss chelsy. I dont know why.... mabie i want to discuss my book.. or something like that. I wish she was here. But thats it. and i hope Jenikas having the best of time. and Desirees working out her problems..... and any1 else also.
Fuck i wrote alot... i wont try to write this much next time.
Wo I Knee ( i love you)
ANd i'll try to get some pictures of Lewis(My roomate) for chason....
i would have to say.... 5 min. ago....... if you asked me how i felt... i would of told you ... "Infinite"
Goodnight ladies...