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What I have done today:
Read a couple more chapters of Brave New World
Read a bunch of Cracked articles
Figured out some logistics about the Redlands trip
Cried a little and got upset about being the only one with a room to myself (like I appreciate my space but also I feel kind of weird about being the only person alone, like my gut was saying "be in Mitchie's room and be around people" and my mind was saying "you would probably get frustrated with that after a few days but then again it IS only a few days that you'll be there"... so idk Mitchie did offer I could stay in their room if I got too uncomfortable so that's always an option)
Finished and submitted my group presentation response paper
Outlined my History of Germany paper
Wrote a little more of my superhero story
What I still have to do:
Get dressed, packed, drive back to school, pack for Redlands
Write about existing sources for my research paper/find additional sources
Write the various sections of my History of Germany paper
Fill out paperwork for Aspire and Phi Kappa Phi
Watch Code Unknown
Hang out with people at Redlands, have lunch with Meghan
I decided to list things out like this because I keep feeling overwhelmed like I have so much to do and have done so little of it already and actually I have done a fair amount of stuff and the amount I have left to do is totally manageable considering I have the whole rest of the week and weekend to do it. Also time feels like it has been passing too fast, possibly because I keep sleeping til noon or later and taking a little bit to get out of bed, but it's like I keep looking at the clock and being like holy shit it is so late suddenly and I haven't done the things I wanted to get done but also I don't feel like I have the energy or motivation to do those things. Like I have spent so much time on tumblr and today Cracked because I can't think of anything else to do and I want to be entertained in a way that takes little effort. I feel like I accomplished jack shit yesterday but actually like I wrote a whole (three page) paper and talked to a bunch of people (including four people at once at a couple points) and finally started to calm down about the weekend (after talking to Bethany some more in the morning and feeling like they at least understood my side of it and didn't also think I was an immature brat who was trying to avoid confrontation or taking responsibility for my actions). So I keep feeling like I've been useless and not made productive use of my time but actually I have done things? So that's cool.
Idk I just hope I have more motivation to do things at Redlands, so I can both hang out with people and get my shit done. I think as long as I get a little done each day I'll be fine, and especially if we come back a little early then I can just have a homework day at the end of break.
Read a couple more chapters of Brave New World
Read a bunch of Cracked articles
Figured out some logistics about the Redlands trip
Cried a little and got upset about being the only one with a room to myself (like I appreciate my space but also I feel kind of weird about being the only person alone, like my gut was saying "be in Mitchie's room and be around people" and my mind was saying "you would probably get frustrated with that after a few days but then again it IS only a few days that you'll be there"... so idk Mitchie did offer I could stay in their room if I got too uncomfortable so that's always an option)
Finished and submitted my group presentation response paper
Outlined my History of Germany paper
Wrote a little more of my superhero story
What I still have to do:
Get dressed, packed, drive back to school, pack for Redlands
Write about existing sources for my research paper/find additional sources
Write the various sections of my History of Germany paper
Fill out paperwork for Aspire and Phi Kappa Phi
Watch Code Unknown
Hang out with people at Redlands, have lunch with Meghan
I decided to list things out like this because I keep feeling overwhelmed like I have so much to do and have done so little of it already and actually I have done a fair amount of stuff and the amount I have left to do is totally manageable considering I have the whole rest of the week and weekend to do it. Also time feels like it has been passing too fast, possibly because I keep sleeping til noon or later and taking a little bit to get out of bed, but it's like I keep looking at the clock and being like holy shit it is so late suddenly and I haven't done the things I wanted to get done but also I don't feel like I have the energy or motivation to do those things. Like I have spent so much time on tumblr and today Cracked because I can't think of anything else to do and I want to be entertained in a way that takes little effort. I feel like I accomplished jack shit yesterday but actually like I wrote a whole (three page) paper and talked to a bunch of people (including four people at once at a couple points) and finally started to calm down about the weekend (after talking to Bethany some more in the morning and feeling like they at least understood my side of it and didn't also think I was an immature brat who was trying to avoid confrontation or taking responsibility for my actions). So I keep feeling like I've been useless and not made productive use of my time but actually I have done things? So that's cool.
Idk I just hope I have more motivation to do things at Redlands, so I can both hang out with people and get my shit done. I think as long as I get a little done each day I'll be fine, and especially if we come back a little early then I can just have a homework day at the end of break.