Bonnaroo... big mistake?
Recently i've started making plans to go to Bonnaroo and i'm feeling unsure on whether or not I should buy the tickets and go.
I would be going by myself, the concept of that doesn't bother me but the practice does. Sadly enough, I don't have any friends to go with(I am also going to Orlando for my birthday by myself) I can see myself having a great time... but I can also see where all of this can go horribly horribly wrong.
I can see myself getting there and being too shy to introduce myself to anyone, then subsequently kicking myself for not introducing myself to anyone. I can see myself not hanging out with anyone for the duration, but somehow getting ahold of alcohol and/or drugs to lift my anxiety and then hating myself in the morning because I had to "self-medicate" again to relieve my social stress. I feel that any joy I would have there would be directly offset by the anxiety and depression I would feel because I would feel like a total douche for being there by myself though in actuality there isn't anything wrong with that... for most normal people.
I dunno. I don't want to miss a chance to have a great time at a music event that i'll enjoy(and would ultimately regret if I didn't go,) but I still can't help but think that i'm just going to fall into the same old traps that I normally do at most social outings.
I would be going by myself, the concept of that doesn't bother me but the practice does. Sadly enough, I don't have any friends to go with(I am also going to Orlando for my birthday by myself) I can see myself having a great time... but I can also see where all of this can go horribly horribly wrong.
I can see myself getting there and being too shy to introduce myself to anyone, then subsequently kicking myself for not introducing myself to anyone. I can see myself not hanging out with anyone for the duration, but somehow getting ahold of alcohol and/or drugs to lift my anxiety and then hating myself in the morning because I had to "self-medicate" again to relieve my social stress. I feel that any joy I would have there would be directly offset by the anxiety and depression I would feel because I would feel like a total douche for being there by myself though in actuality there isn't anything wrong with that... for most normal people.
I dunno. I don't want to miss a chance to have a great time at a music event that i'll enjoy(and would ultimately regret if I didn't go,) but I still can't help but think that i'm just going to fall into the same old traps that I normally do at most social outings.