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I came across this community a while ago and it seemed interesting, so I have some questions and what not and I was hoping some of you who have been diagnosed with AS can help me.
I'm female. Almost 19 years old. My cousin who is 8 has Asperger's. Anyway, I'm a little confused. I know a bit about the condition, just from reading online.
I work at Target (retail) usually as a Register operator or the door greeter. I like being door greeter because I simply can stand there without people constantly talking to me. When on registers, I am always wanting to be the one to take the coathanger totes out to the back of the store and empty them. Or I want to do any little job that I can be on my own and do my own thing. I don't dislike people, but I don't feel a need to talk to them.
I also have a hard time learning things, such as when I went to school. I didn't understand things in math or science that everyone else seemed to pick up easily and no matter how many times I was taught/shown, I still didn't get it, but I'm not dumb or anything.
I'm not really that much of a shy person, although I don't know what to say to people in conversation and I tend to talk about myself instead when someone is talking about themselves. Usually when someone is talking a lot, I don't really listen, I just tune out or play with my phone. When it's my chance to talk, I'll just keep talking.
I also dislike it when my opinion is being challenged and I tend to overeact about things, easily.
With strangers, I always mix words up or can't get them out right and no matter who I'm talking to, I can't keep eye contact at all. I never have been able to. I don't mind going places alone, I also have no interest in driving a car no matter how many times I'm told I have to learn and I find it hard to have real feelings for someone.
Sometimes I also have random mood swings where everything irritates me or I just feel down for no reason, or over little things. I sometimes obsess over things pretty badly for a short while then move onto something else. I sometimes tap my leg on the ground without really realizing it and I like to do things the same way. Like take the same path to a place, make sure a certain thing is always a certain way. Each time I am on a register at work, I make sure the screens on an angle I like, the scanner is angled backwards and my pen is where I always have it, etc.
I also feel my heart beating fast when I have to see certain people or talk to them, although I don't feel nervous for it at all and know there's no reason to be nervous.
Im not sure if this is related either, but since I was 8, I sniffed my fingers. I'd rub them over my lips and just smell the nail or whatever. I didn't even realize I was doing it half the time and I still am doing it. I used to do it infront of people without reazling and got made fun of. I've never been able to stop it. Maybe it's some kind of OCD?
Anyway, if anyone could help me out with my confusion, that would be great.
Thanks.
I'm female. Almost 19 years old. My cousin who is 8 has Asperger's. Anyway, I'm a little confused. I know a bit about the condition, just from reading online.
I work at Target (retail) usually as a Register operator or the door greeter. I like being door greeter because I simply can stand there without people constantly talking to me. When on registers, I am always wanting to be the one to take the coathanger totes out to the back of the store and empty them. Or I want to do any little job that I can be on my own and do my own thing. I don't dislike people, but I don't feel a need to talk to them.
I also have a hard time learning things, such as when I went to school. I didn't understand things in math or science that everyone else seemed to pick up easily and no matter how many times I was taught/shown, I still didn't get it, but I'm not dumb or anything.
I'm not really that much of a shy person, although I don't know what to say to people in conversation and I tend to talk about myself instead when someone is talking about themselves. Usually when someone is talking a lot, I don't really listen, I just tune out or play with my phone. When it's my chance to talk, I'll just keep talking.
I also dislike it when my opinion is being challenged and I tend to overeact about things, easily.
With strangers, I always mix words up or can't get them out right and no matter who I'm talking to, I can't keep eye contact at all. I never have been able to. I don't mind going places alone, I also have no interest in driving a car no matter how many times I'm told I have to learn and I find it hard to have real feelings for someone.
Sometimes I also have random mood swings where everything irritates me or I just feel down for no reason, or over little things. I sometimes obsess over things pretty badly for a short while then move onto something else. I sometimes tap my leg on the ground without really realizing it and I like to do things the same way. Like take the same path to a place, make sure a certain thing is always a certain way. Each time I am on a register at work, I make sure the screens on an angle I like, the scanner is angled backwards and my pen is where I always have it, etc.
I also feel my heart beating fast when I have to see certain people or talk to them, although I don't feel nervous for it at all and know there's no reason to be nervous.
Im not sure if this is related either, but since I was 8, I sniffed my fingers. I'd rub them over my lips and just smell the nail or whatever. I didn't even realize I was doing it half the time and I still am doing it. I used to do it infront of people without reazling and got made fun of. I've never been able to stop it. Maybe it's some kind of OCD?
Anyway, if anyone could help me out with my confusion, that would be great.
Thanks.