blackest sheep amongst a flock of them
when i go on a troop movement to somewhere like in the middle of nowhere pa i question what is this amplified desire i sense for everyone to be/act/look a certain way, whatever youre supposed to dress like or pay attention to to be a real man, always feeling like im so different isnt what is weird, but the fact that i am different being a big deal, is whats weird to me, isnt everyone different, im strange because i dont try to emulate some phantom figure of what im automatically supposed to be, i am in the military i dress and act a certain way, i am a hick i am whatever. its stupid. everyone there always remembers me, singles me out right away, i asked why... "i dont know its just something about you man" i miss the city a lot when im not in it. i mostly despise it when i am. funny how things like that always work.