A blue moon dream
Once upon a time, I thought myself as a person who is always cool and collected at all times.
I guess not.
I was woken up by a dream this morning, where I was screamed at one of my oldtime friend.
Here was how the dream went:
We went on a trip to an adventure resort where there were lots of gliding to be done and it was surprisingly pretty for a rough adventure travel. Asae and I partnered together on this trip because we thought that we were such good friends.
During the course of journey, she confided in me with regards to her feelings and thoughts about stuff that she saw during the trip. I felt super happy as I felt like I have gained a good and close friend.
Along the trip, as the pace was very hectic and I was starting to be tired of lugging all the luggages around, I was building castles in the air when she was unhappy with me. She accused me of starting to become the same as all her other friends, and ignored her needs when she really wanted me to accompany her to go to a store to shop for her stuff.
I kept quiet and followed her around. Then, during breakfast, she was whining about some incidents about how she was being treated unfairly because there was no one to accompany her to do the stuff that she likes. At that point of time, I was already steaming with frustrated anger at how selfish the whole conversation has become. So, when she brought up a sarcastic remark in front of me, I could't take it anymore and exploded in front of everyone at the breakfast table. Somehow, Nigel and his friend also appeared in my dream and was sitting at the same breakfast table. His first reply was," This is the first time I have seen you so angry."
Disclaimer: This did not actually happen. It is just a dream.
I wonder if this reflects the turmoil in my heart. There is this sense of displacement. Of course, I'm really happy for her great experience at SSEAYP but at the same time, there is this sense of loss and belonging.
Oh well, it will pass sooner or later :)
I guess not.
I was woken up by a dream this morning, where I was screamed at one of my oldtime friend.
Here was how the dream went:
We went on a trip to an adventure resort where there were lots of gliding to be done and it was surprisingly pretty for a rough adventure travel. Asae and I partnered together on this trip because we thought that we were such good friends.
During the course of journey, she confided in me with regards to her feelings and thoughts about stuff that she saw during the trip. I felt super happy as I felt like I have gained a good and close friend.
Along the trip, as the pace was very hectic and I was starting to be tired of lugging all the luggages around, I was building castles in the air when she was unhappy with me. She accused me of starting to become the same as all her other friends, and ignored her needs when she really wanted me to accompany her to go to a store to shop for her stuff.
I kept quiet and followed her around. Then, during breakfast, she was whining about some incidents about how she was being treated unfairly because there was no one to accompany her to do the stuff that she likes. At that point of time, I was already steaming with frustrated anger at how selfish the whole conversation has become. So, when she brought up a sarcastic remark in front of me, I could't take it anymore and exploded in front of everyone at the breakfast table. Somehow, Nigel and his friend also appeared in my dream and was sitting at the same breakfast table. His first reply was," This is the first time I have seen you so angry."
Disclaimer: This did not actually happen. It is just a dream.
I wonder if this reflects the turmoil in my heart. There is this sense of displacement. Of course, I'm really happy for her great experience at SSEAYP but at the same time, there is this sense of loss and belonging.
Oh well, it will pass sooner or later :)