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As I have been reading the posts of the only two friends that I have here on livejournal I realized that I am not really a livejournal sort of person. Not that I am going to leave, but even right now, as I feel like complete crap, but no matter what, I am probably not ever going to write down why I feel like that exactly. I also feel kinda bad because I become greatly antisocial in the summer. Not that I don't love ya'll, I just don't see people. I would love to hang out with paige. I <3 her; srsly, but reading her and Bonnie's posts made me realize how much I don't do anything during the summer. m'oh well.
I feel slightly hurt that bonnie didn't tell me about her angst. That I partially me being selfish...but I was there from the start. Now bonnie, don't go feeling all bad just cuz I said that. It is done and over with, and you can't do anything about it.
I guess part of my not person-ness this summer is due in part to the fact that I am working full time. Yay cleaning up dog shit for 10 hrs straight at $8.00 an hour. I just want summer to suck less.
I have to work full time. My best friend of 18 years is moving away in aug. My bf is 450 effing miles away. My car has been getting crappy mileage. I don't know what book to read. I just want to be a kid again. I don't want responcibility, I don't want to work, I don't want to have to worry about what I am going to do for grad school. (and I can't even spell)
I am already angsting about going to the right school, and what exactly I want to do. I am a sophmore and I am already nervous as hell about graduating. (how is hell nervous? ..... anyhoo)
now for bitching of a different manner.
I was in the eye doctor place (optomotrist? *attempts*) and this guy walks in and he was wearing a tight black shirt and jeans. He was also carrying a back purse with fake fur trim. My mom *has* to comment about it, saying in a slightly condescending voice "Nice little fur-trimmed purse he has there" basically saying that it was stupid that he was gay. I personally don't give a flying rat's ass if a person is gay or not. So I said to my mom "And?" I don't think she liked the fact that I didn't care.
Then we were driving home, and there are these people who have a small buffalo statue in their yard. My mom made a comment about it, I said that I liked the small statue, and then she said "with an emphasis on small". I said to her "well, you would say how big and tacky it is if they had a bigger statue. maybe they don't want to be ostentatious (sp srry) with the statue. she didn't like that....oh well.
I love my mom. I do, a lot. But I just think differently than her sometimes...
anyhoo....
I feel slightly hurt that bonnie didn't tell me about her angst. That I partially me being selfish...but I was there from the start. Now bonnie, don't go feeling all bad just cuz I said that. It is done and over with, and you can't do anything about it.
I guess part of my not person-ness this summer is due in part to the fact that I am working full time. Yay cleaning up dog shit for 10 hrs straight at $8.00 an hour. I just want summer to suck less.
I have to work full time. My best friend of 18 years is moving away in aug. My bf is 450 effing miles away. My car has been getting crappy mileage. I don't know what book to read. I just want to be a kid again. I don't want responcibility, I don't want to work, I don't want to have to worry about what I am going to do for grad school. (and I can't even spell)
I am already angsting about going to the right school, and what exactly I want to do. I am a sophmore and I am already nervous as hell about graduating. (how is hell nervous? ..... anyhoo)
now for bitching of a different manner.
I was in the eye doctor place (optomotrist? *attempts*) and this guy walks in and he was wearing a tight black shirt and jeans. He was also carrying a back purse with fake fur trim. My mom *has* to comment about it, saying in a slightly condescending voice "Nice little fur-trimmed purse he has there" basically saying that it was stupid that he was gay. I personally don't give a flying rat's ass if a person is gay or not. So I said to my mom "And?" I don't think she liked the fact that I didn't care.
Then we were driving home, and there are these people who have a small buffalo statue in their yard. My mom made a comment about it, I said that I liked the small statue, and then she said "with an emphasis on small". I said to her "well, you would say how big and tacky it is if they had a bigger statue. maybe they don't want to be ostentatious (sp srry) with the statue. she didn't like that....oh well.
I love my mom. I do, a lot. But I just think differently than her sometimes...
anyhoo....