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What is my problem? I am moping at home while everyone I know is at the practice space having a good time...I just dont feel like watching people play music right now... I dont want to WATCH... I want to do something... I want to be talented at something... I want to be able to go to the practice space and play something or sing... just do something... and part of my problem is even if I did know how to play an instrument I wouldnt do it in front of people for fear of screwing up... I also havent sung in front of anyone since high school, when my music teacher used to bother me to try out for musicals and so I went and tryed out for Grease, and even though I got called back, I didnt go, because I was too embarrassed... I have never heard my voice, I neevr want to hear my voice, let alone anyone else... the only thing that has ever heard me sing is my car, and I intent on keeping it that way.. I need a hobby, but what kind of a hobby can I have? I cant paint, I cant dance, I cant sing, I cant draw, its too bad TV cant be a hobby, or working cant be a hobby, because Id be fantastic at that...
I have this boyfriend and all of these friends who are amazingly talented at music, and arent afraid to show their talents and I feel so useless among all of them... Im not talented or creative like any of them... and so now Im sitting at the computer doing nothing... I need to get out of here, I can hear my roommate and her boyfriend making out...
I have this boyfriend and all of these friends who are amazingly talented at music, and arent afraid to show their talents and I feel so useless among all of them... Im not talented or creative like any of them... and so now Im sitting at the computer doing nothing... I need to get out of here, I can hear my roommate and her boyfriend making out...