everythings great....and then i come along....now its a national diaster....
im tired.... and bored....and depressed.....my mom is being mega bitch.... we had an arguement....and she made it bigger than need be....of course.... and tjs going home today.....bc i cant keep my fat mouth shut....everythings my fault....i say i dont want my friends to change...and yet im the reason they do change to begin with..... how horrible am i.....i dont know anymore.... i dont see why tjs still going out with me with all the problems i have.... i always agrue stupid shit bc 'its the way i feel'...well, maybe for once i should keep my feeling in....i hate my life with a passion sometimes.... everything will be going great and then BOOM its all gone in an instant.... and its my fault....great. i grounded for 2 weeks..... which i havent been in a while....that im proud of, now the hard part is getting out of it....but i doubt it will work....i just dont have the will to do it anymore.....i will just see where the wind blows me as the saying goes...but knowing my luck i will get blown into a tree or some heavy, possibly metal object of some sort..... well, im off to finish laundry. love you all and love you tj, NikA