Re: i have to say.. this is some funny shit.sheischangingDecember 22 2006, 21:00:21 UTC
I might have no say in this dialogue you're trying to initiate, but as a person who's done some very "bad" things, and feel I've been able to rise above my weakness of character, and force myself to be a better person even though it wasn't the "easy" route...
Here's some food for thought: is it possible, just possible that human beings can change and grow as people? Phil's told me about his sordid past; the lies, the pain, the manipulation. He was forthcoming about all of it, even though it initially made me want to shy away from him. But the man I've known, the man that you don't know because you're so busy clinging to a jaded, bitter history, is not the man you're trying to paint here.
Sometimes you have to shift your parameters, that means maybe even leaving an old group imbued with nothing but the pain of the past... to grow. Some might call it a running away tactic, and to many it is, but whatever facilitates a person's need to finally develop into something better... well I say take that road. So he has new friends, and a new life, but maybe his bullshit isn't bullshit. Maybe he became that person.
You may feel pity for me. You may think I'm swallowing a pill of deception, but I have intellect, instinct, and can rub two synapses together; they all say he's being genuine. So, in a way, you might feel pity for me for whatever fire you think I'm throwing myself into for adoring this man, but I feel pity for you, for being so narrow-minded and shallow to think that a human being is incapable of change, and growth.
Also; when I was with him at Wal-Mart, he didn't try to intimidate you, or threaten you, he grinned a big happy grin and offered his hand to yours, and you gave a false smile and put your hand in his. My instinct bode that you were the person behaving on falsities. Not that I automatically assume that's your character, but in my span of interaction with him, and you, you were the one that reeked of deception and tension, not him. Whatever blood fued you're trying to keep alive... maybe it's time you just let it go.
Here's some food for thought: is it possible, just possible that human beings can change and grow as people? Phil's told me about his sordid past; the lies, the pain, the manipulation. He was forthcoming about all of it, even though it initially made me want to shy away from him. But the man I've known, the man that you don't know because you're so busy clinging to a jaded, bitter history, is not the man you're trying to paint here.
Sometimes you have to shift your parameters, that means maybe even leaving an old group imbued with nothing but the pain of the past... to grow. Some might call it a running away tactic, and to many it is, but whatever facilitates a person's need to finally develop into something better... well I say take that road. So he has new friends, and a new life, but maybe his bullshit isn't bullshit. Maybe he became that person.
You may feel pity for me. You may think I'm swallowing a pill of deception, but I have intellect, instinct, and can rub two synapses together; they all say he's being genuine. So, in a way, you might feel pity for me for whatever fire you think I'm throwing myself into for adoring this man, but I feel pity for you, for being so narrow-minded and shallow to think that a human being is incapable of change, and growth.
Also; when I was with him at Wal-Mart, he didn't try to intimidate you, or threaten you, he grinned a big happy grin and offered his hand to yours, and you gave a false smile and put your hand in his. My instinct bode that you were the person behaving on falsities. Not that I automatically assume that's your character, but in my span of interaction with him, and you, you were the one that reeked of deception and tension, not him. Whatever blood fued you're trying to keep alive... maybe it's time you just let it go.
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