vivaldi homework and a discussion on gay online dating...
gothiccomposer: but this constant searching through profiles... would make me feel pathetic.. unnatractive... and a complete loser.
gothiccomposer: you dn't feel this way..
gothiccomposer: after viewing an endless series of mugshots that all same the same thing...
gothiccomposer: Like while doing it.. I would feel like such a troll... I would feel dirty while doing it.
gothiccomposer: I guess it goes againts my principles.. I may be weird and unnattractive to the majority of the gay population. but that is just their opinion and because of it they are missing out which is really sad cause most of them are a dime a dozen where there maybe 2 or 3 other people in this world that are anything like me. There a lots of people out there that are just like (think of several slutty fags we all know). But when it comes to consistant emotional support, integrity, strong character, and intelligent. I and the 2 other people like me will always take the cake. Because of this I will not paine, beg, search, stalk, or initiate anything with some random mugshot with an ASL and penis size.
gothiccomposer: honestly I find it degrating and beneath me.
John Doe: Well, while it may be painstaking, and while there's a lot of rubbish you have to search for, I think there's at least a chance the needle in the haystack can be found. Afterall, you have personal ads on some sites. Somebody could potentially find you on such a site and it could be a good match.
John Doe: If everybody threw up a personal ad and nobody read them, they wouldn't do a damn bit of good.
gothiccomposer: well then they come to me.. I dont go after them.
gothiccomposer: I admit that I have met several people online.. and I enjoyed them.. but they always come to me first.
gothiccomposer: none of them I would date now cause all they did want was sex or a desperate need to have a BF to make themselves feel better. In those cases I defined the title.. the title did not defind me.
gothiccomposer: it's only good when you are dumb and pretty.. when a mugshot can capture the very essense of your worth..
John Doe: There ya go. I figure if I'm out there looking through these things, then statistically there's probably many other worth-while guys out there doing the same thing.
gothiccomposer: it's half way usefull for you because while your pretty your not stupid... so it's a hit and miss but when you like me.. smart and ugly.. it does not a damn thing.
gothiccomposer: John Doe, I can honestly say.. that the one huge misunderstanding about our friendship is that you don't understand that the rules that I have to play by are very much different than yours because your pretty and I'm not. Your experience as a gay man is very very different than mine.. It really is a whole other world. I don't want a pity party and I'm not down playing your personal struggle.. but you do have it much much easier than I.
gothiccomposer: even in our media.. I feel left out.. Be in gay movies like a beautiful thing or magzines like XY or books as in "like people in history" or tv shows like will and grace or queer as folk. Even in out own stories.. I have no place. I cannot sympathize with any of these characters or feel a connection to any of there feelings cause they are all beautiful.. and they know it.. and the world knows it.. it's just an understood fact that they dont' struggle with but blindly accept. I can't imagine just living a single day.. where I was pretty and all the world knew it.
gothiccomposer: while I technically don't disagree with you usage of this media to meet knew people... you have to understand my general belief that there are better ways.. if not more holesum ways...... and I just wish you did things more personally productive than sit and flip through personal pages.... in my opinion.
gothiccomposer: you dn't feel this way..
gothiccomposer: after viewing an endless series of mugshots that all same the same thing...
gothiccomposer: Like while doing it.. I would feel like such a troll... I would feel dirty while doing it.
gothiccomposer: I guess it goes againts my principles.. I may be weird and unnattractive to the majority of the gay population. but that is just their opinion and because of it they are missing out which is really sad cause most of them are a dime a dozen where there maybe 2 or 3 other people in this world that are anything like me. There a lots of people out there that are just like (think of several slutty fags we all know). But when it comes to consistant emotional support, integrity, strong character, and intelligent. I and the 2 other people like me will always take the cake. Because of this I will not paine, beg, search, stalk, or initiate anything with some random mugshot with an ASL and penis size.
gothiccomposer: honestly I find it degrating and beneath me.
John Doe: Well, while it may be painstaking, and while there's a lot of rubbish you have to search for, I think there's at least a chance the needle in the haystack can be found. Afterall, you have personal ads on some sites. Somebody could potentially find you on such a site and it could be a good match.
John Doe: If everybody threw up a personal ad and nobody read them, they wouldn't do a damn bit of good.
gothiccomposer: well then they come to me.. I dont go after them.
gothiccomposer: I admit that I have met several people online.. and I enjoyed them.. but they always come to me first.
gothiccomposer: none of them I would date now cause all they did want was sex or a desperate need to have a BF to make themselves feel better. In those cases I defined the title.. the title did not defind me.
gothiccomposer: it's only good when you are dumb and pretty.. when a mugshot can capture the very essense of your worth..
John Doe: There ya go. I figure if I'm out there looking through these things, then statistically there's probably many other worth-while guys out there doing the same thing.
gothiccomposer: it's half way usefull for you because while your pretty your not stupid... so it's a hit and miss but when you like me.. smart and ugly.. it does not a damn thing.
gothiccomposer: John Doe, I can honestly say.. that the one huge misunderstanding about our friendship is that you don't understand that the rules that I have to play by are very much different than yours because your pretty and I'm not. Your experience as a gay man is very very different than mine.. It really is a whole other world. I don't want a pity party and I'm not down playing your personal struggle.. but you do have it much much easier than I.
gothiccomposer: even in our media.. I feel left out.. Be in gay movies like a beautiful thing or magzines like XY or books as in "like people in history" or tv shows like will and grace or queer as folk. Even in out own stories.. I have no place. I cannot sympathize with any of these characters or feel a connection to any of there feelings cause they are all beautiful.. and they know it.. and the world knows it.. it's just an understood fact that they dont' struggle with but blindly accept. I can't imagine just living a single day.. where I was pretty and all the world knew it.
gothiccomposer: while I technically don't disagree with you usage of this media to meet knew people... you have to understand my general belief that there are better ways.. if not more holesum ways...... and I just wish you did things more personally productive than sit and flip through personal pages.... in my opinion.